It's Not Always This Perfect...

Epilogue #2 - What Needs To Be Said...

2011-06-18T02:34:00.000+08:00

Dear readers,

It has been two months since Epilogue #1... and within these two months, I learn.

What was before... was never meant to be. Someone told me this before... and I never realize it until recently... it was then... I knew.

I learn a lot from my past relationships... and I learn from each and every one of them what it is there that I should have done that never were. In times like these... life happen for a reason and it happened for something good.

Before, I was an emotional mess when Ree Nee left me last January. The reason of the break up... there was a 3rd party. That person involved himself with her. She told everyone she was single when she was with me and then knowing the real truth from various people that were "involve" in the circle and then after my own mother made that phone call... eventually, it ended. She told me not to contact anymore when families are involve... but the next day, she asked me regarding about Korea and how do we proceed with the plan.

Was there any more reason that two people should even proceed in going on a trip together when one no longer fought for the love she promised she would fight on to stay in a relationship and eventually accept a proposal from someone else that had a girlfriend then?

I asked myself this - how can she accept someone like that?

As time goes by and no longer I had any contact with her since April - within these two months, some thing changes. For one... I never cared any more why she accepted that someone. Why she accepted that someone which there is no point in mentioning his name any more had done greater damage to himself and to his own ex. Yes... I know more now than ever of the whole truth. I talk to various people and eventually... it is the right thing to do that I should leave things be. I was given many advice... but in the end, life took over. For what its worth... in the end, good things even happen to me too.

For one... I got a job I wanted. I never thought I would get it but I am now hired. Secondly, I met someone. I thought Ree Nee was the one meant for me. There were many good things that happened... but I realized now why she is there and she was there in a relationship for a reason - that I will learn the one last learning in life... and now, that reason is there. I do love Ree Nee... but not the way it was meant to be. Not as a life partner... but more of a learning curve that eventually set me in motion on one final journey I am now heading towards.

Given that... Ree Nee became a past. Before, I was angry. Angry at how I was betrayed and how what she had done to me, to "his" ex and what they both had lied even. Now... I know myself now I can never be angry any more. Have I forgive them? Eventually yes... and eventually, I move on too. There is no reason to get angry any more when what is ahead of me is most important.

I know Ree Nee deleted her blog... I did not. I confront my past because it is there and it is true. Like my previous blogs before this one - it gave me the empowerment to confront and stand up in my own confidence. Now, I have someone who believe in me as I believe in her... and we are now taking things slow. In time... there will be more about learning the imperfections of life to make things better for each other. For Ree Nee, I know she will face her own problems ahead eventually... and this will be something she will have to learn that not all fairy tales do come true for the actions both of them did that hurt others. This will be a life... that I do not want to know any more.

So finally, I can put this to rest. If you are still reading this... you know where I will be heading. Right now - I know what I must do. It is a whole new beginning for me... and for the first time, I have to work hard on myself to reach there. I know its not easy... but nothing is ever easy.

Goodbye readers... and if you stumble upon me again... you can follow me from there.

Sincerely and finally one chapter ends in my life,

Duncan

Epilogue #1 - People Need To Know About This!

2011-04-17T11:24:00.005+08:00

Dear readers,

I know what I said about my last post that this will be the last one but as time goes by... I know there are those that reads my blog. Well... recently, I found out the whole truth. And this comes from a victim. I feel... there is something I should not hold on any longer... and for those that really do care about Khaw Ree Nee, it is up to you if you all care about her to help her or not.

Just yesterday, my own mother did a very stupid thing... but I would say, I did a very stupid thing myself for telling it to my mother. My mother called Ree Nee's sister (which was an impulsive move) to ask about who is the one that wanted to go to the Night Marathon. In truth, Ree Nee did want to go with me but soon she feels that there is no need because now she has Liew Vui Chun (Chun Liew). Because of that phone call my mother made, Ree Nee asked me to NC (no contact) because it involves her family. What she did not know the reason this happen was... I wanted to show her the truth about Liew Vui Chun. I was nearly kick out of the house because of that (my parents never get the facts straight) but I am still here and now wanting to find a place to stay. My parents can never understand anything when a girl breaks up with me. I can never understand it myself why they are this way... but they are who they are. I apologize to Ree Nee's sister, Ree Na... for getting her mood on that day horribly bad. Anyway...

Why does this happen? Simple - Liew Vui Chun is a serial. He had done this before to a few girls. He use the same tactic to the girls, getting them to have a mutual understanding (what I was told), get them involved, used them to satisfy his needs and soon, when he find somebody else, he will blame his victims, tell lies and use his innocence and his victims names are branded as bitches and sluts. The victims names had been tarnished by him... making himself look like the victim while his victims are the culprits. He is smart. He use the truth to hide his own lies. All his victims said he is a very fierce person and always scold his victims in front of everybody in public in shame. Yesterday... I wanted to confront Ree Nee about this but somehow because of my mother, it is fated there is no point in confronting this any more (but soon, there was no need)

Now... how did I get this information? I know some of the victims and by request, I will never put their names here. It is their privacy I will respect and since now they know the whole truth, some of them wants to do something about it. As for Ree Nee, she is way beyond listening. She is doing things blindly as her interpretation of "love" is all about feelings. There are people telling me... leave it be, let her suffer the way the victims go through and it looks like I have no choice. But I know some of you had my blog still reads them and some of you knows who is Ree Nee.

I do care for her... and I never understand why this happened. Why she broke off with me and why she would choose someone that really knows how to sweet nothings and promise things that will never happen in the future. I even thought he was a nice guy, convince even... until I found out the whole truth. If you are truly friends of Ree Nee, when something happens to her... be there for her. She told me she will never let her parents involve and know about Liew Vui Chun. She is not going to show Chun Liew to her sister at all. Her Kuching holiday trip this November was because of him (and I have fear... something might happen to her on the way there - she is going alone she hardly meet) and not because of her new found friends. Right now, she do not even talk to her new found friends and her new found friends are not very happy about this because of him (they too, know him... and they know him very well).

He knows how to destroy emotions... and he had destroyed a few people. What he does not know... that almost everybody he knows, knows he is a liar. That is why he is smart because all the victims told me one thing he never does - and I did it with Ree Nee and so does she when we were together. There are a few things that really shows if the person truly love another - you will show yourself to all your friends... who is the one you love. This is one affectionate way of showing and be proud of who you really love.

If you are Ree Nee's friends who are reading this, be there for her when something happens. I know she is a really stubborn person. She won't listen and she thinks she is smart. She is a smart person academically... but she is not smart when it comes to love. She would do anything to protect the one she loves... even lying, cheating and defaming an innocent person. She does not know what she is doing is wrong...

As for me, yesterday was considered done. NC... there is no point for me to go back for her because of the things she had done. I do not even want to accept her back but I do care for her for what is worth of the almost 2 years together and the memories we made together. It is just... the words she said to me after the break up and she even told a lie to her new friends... that was when I had it.

Now... I am single and I am moving forward. I am even seeing new people as well and plan on local trips with people I just met. There are things I need to fix myself as well - looking for a job, getting back my own confidence and pushing myself to be better. At least now, I have to be careful who I will commit... because the one I fight really hard for had disappointed me (she even took down her blog because there was once, she said she will fight for me too but now she did not). I can never trust a person that did wrong to me... and even if its too late, she will suffer like Chun Liew's victims... it is up to her whether the one that has been trying to save her is worth while contacting or not (but I know she won't... like she said, she say move forward, but I always believe we can learn a lot in the past to be a better person in the future)... because this time, the one person that wanted to save her was me... I deserve to be treated right and not wrongfully accused of something I am not of what she told about me to her family and to her friends...

So, will there be Epilogue #2? I really do not know... I am keeping this hold first... and see what happens... and since I am beyond any means of what I can't do, I do hope Ree Nee's friends or family that do read this... help her when the time comes. What I said here are not lies now... and if need proven by challenge, I can bring the victims to confront him even.

Sincerely,

Duncan Lee

Finally - There is Closure. So is this one...

2011-02-14T01:13:00.000+08:00

Dear readers,

After much talk with Ree Nee and the understanding we get from each other... we all have to move on. It is sad how one person was partly involve in the break-up, that even though me and Ree Nee had some problems that actually can be fix (when she never told me what are the problems were; communication is best in all relationships if two people should talk it out)... but it was too late. Chun Liew did a lot of damage... so is Perfect World.

To remember - Ree Nee and I had a lot of memories together we shared. She gave me 12 beautiful written letters that are sincere and full of heart, an anniversary letter that tells me how much she loved me and continue to hope we will go through good times and bad times together, flowers for my birthday and a birthday cake that I thought it taste like Vanilla. We travel together in Bangkok alone, went to Langkawi with her parents. My occasional visits in Penang that are memorable when her family welcomes me. The food we ate together that we shared... the things that we do; moments that I can never forget that me and Ree Nee took pictures together...

... all is gone in a blink of an eye.

I know at times, we do not see things clearly together. We do not understand much together if only given time we will learn so much. I was trying to save what I can and make her see something that two people can do more if given more time and now... everything is gone.

The song, which was Sara Bareilles Gravity was so true - our relationship became at first the beginning and was fated together as a sign... now ends as a parting song.

This song... is the most beautifully written song ever for me and her. Now... it is truly a closure for the both of us. Now... this blog finally ends.

Although I am sad... to see how this becomes, there is nothing I can do but making plans to move away, and leave every pain and suffering I have felt in my whole life. First it was Suet... and now, it is Ree Nee. I still love her... always, will be.

As always, what I have done in my last blog as I left that life, soon I am going to leave this blog for good too. My presences will be gone as well... and once again, if you think you can find me... I am still around. Just a different blog, in a different place. Who knows, you might find me and read how my life is in the land of Oz... couple of months later.

Till then, this is farewell, dear readers. You have been in my journey... and I hope your journey is well for you to. Farewell...

Regards,

Duncan

When you found out the truth... that your ex-girlfriend was lied to...

2011-02-13T05:26:00.002+08:00

Dear readers,

Life sometimes includes many things - and one of them are lies. My ex-girlfriend broke up with me because she said I was not good enough... the truth is, there was a third party involve. His name is Liew Vui Chun. I do not blame her for it... why? Because this person has a girlfriend name Teddy Yee...

I just want to tell you that life... has a lot of lies if you do not find out the truth, people tend to believe the lies...

I just hope my ex will wake up...

Regards,

Duncan

There is no closure in my heart... I guess I am the fool now...

2011-02-05T20:42:00.000+08:00

Dear readers,

I talk to Ree Nee tonight... and realize from her words that she has no feelings for me completely. She never thought of giving one last chance... at least, for the sake of what we have been through at least...

It is the hardest decision in my life now... that she ask me to move on. The hardest is to move on without her... Right now, I am in tears. I can not control the feelings I am going through. All the things I have said before was foolish. All the things that I have said, is nothing but regrets. There is no home for me in this world...

I do not think I can ever fall in love again... nor I want to even accept anyone at all. Ree Nee is my last, like I said before... and it pains me that I have fuck up my chance that was given to me... and what is important to me now... is gone.

I am feeling miserable... I am hurting like hell... it hurts like hell, this love... I don't think I can ever face this again...

I am sorry, readers... it is too much pain to even write any more... this is my last post and final one. I think it is time for me... to remove myself from everything that is good... because I do not want to believe or trust anything any more. I fought so hard to believe that there is hope... and now... I just do not want to hurt myself... its so painful...

Goodbye readers... I hope your life is much better than mine... because now, I do not want to think that my life will be any better...

Regards,

Duncan

I Am Always Looking For An Answer...

2011-02-05T18:02:00.000+08:00

Dear readers,

Lately, my heart can't just put down even though after the break up. It is something inside of me... I am still wondering why she fallen out of love for me. It is like there is no closure as to what has happen... and why it happen. Of course, she did told me all the reasons... but there is something I realize in myself... I just can not let go - because I realize I truly love her.

I have always been searching for many things in my life. There were many times I felt that I stumble on many bad things, things along the way that became an obstacle in my life that make me entirely something I should have fix a long time ago. When I met Ree Nee, I met someone that I never realize she was good. That she will be the one... and the last one I will ever will be fall in love. We gone through many things in life - we travel to some distances that I never thought I am able to. She gave me gifts that really with all honest words and genuine feelings poured into so much, you will know there is sincerity in them. It is pure... it is real... it is true. We experience different types of food in life. We even explore and try new things, participate in other things that I myself never thought I would do. The moment we share together alone and with her family... and the one song that seriously fated to each other (it happened... fate really happened) without knowing it. Although she did not think much about the song... but it happened for the both of us when we are apart and the radio was played in the afternoon while I tune into the radio station...

Fate brought us together for a reason... and the one thing that break us up... was because I made a mistake in my own life. She tried so hard to make me a better person... but I just did not see it until I realize it is too late.

I took too damn long a time!

I really do love her... I do.

How can I let it go like this? It is not easy... I mean, I can not put down my heart so easily... I really need more time!

Sigh...

I do not know how or what she thinks most of the time. It is true - we are different people apart. It is just... I feel that this is not the end yet.

We still have the Energizer Night Marathon and the trip to Korea together. What will happen during this time... I really do not know. I do not know if she likes anyone (my mind is going nuts) or anyone in particular likes her. It is just... I think she is the one...

I wish there is an answer to this... but I know myself... I will always look for an answer. I know now... I really love her.

Regards,

Duncan Lee

It's Official - (651) Days of Ree Nee

2011-01-31T22:43:00.001+08:00

Dear readers,

It has been, 651 days when I was with Ree Nee. Yesterday, she gave up on me. I never thought how painful it was when she break up with me... and mainly because, it is my own mess. My own mistake... and she is right, I can not caged someone who can't be cage.

When the morning was over, I realize I let go someone so wonderful, so beautiful and someone I fallen in love with so deeply. More than any other I have...

It reminds me of my favorite movie - (500) Days of Summer. Of course, I watched the 3rd time since the break-up (its considered a record for me) and as I see why Tom Hansen (played by Joseph Gordon-Levitt) lost someone wonderful and how he fought for her, in the end... eventually it was never meant to be.

I guess that... Ree Nee was never sure of me when she woke up one day...

Life has to move on... there are a lot of things that needs to clear and given back. Never thought it would happen...

Sincerely (with tears),

Duncan

It was over... and there was no time...

2011-01-31T08:42:00.000+08:00

Dearest readers,

As time goes by... life has its own choices and roads and influences in everything else. I realize... mine came to an end. Someone I love... has given up on me. Partly because it is my own fault too.

Everything that comes to an end... was the saddest thing I woke up this morning and realize... how much I miss her and how much I loved her.

Now I am single... I do not know where to begin with... but I just hope all she said was true... its just a nagging feeling that she is still lying about the 3rd party that has involve in our relationship...

Regards,

Duncan Lee

2010 is coming to an end; Looking Back or Looking Forward...

2010-12-25T22:16:00.000+08:00

Dearest readers,

This year, 2010, is not a good year for me. Right now on Christmas Day I am watching (500) Days of Summer. Looking back this year it has been not good to me - work was bad, I am financially tight and my family is not doing too well. In times of everything, I wish there is a miracle... but miracles do not always come when you need them because this is reality - we all have to work for dreams and fantasy we all want. Times like these, I do feel pretty lost... but then, I do not feel this way because I have someone who encourage me to work harder for my life and do what must be done - to strive forward. While there is some fear in me that I may lose more than what I love before, which I had lost and I had lost more than I remember who and what I was before... and I am more afraid I will lose more than ever.

Right now, I am being positive and hope 2011 will be much better... and that is just wishful thinking...

Yours sincerely...

Not blogging lately...

2010-12-06T13:21:00.000+08:00

Dear readers,

Well, there are many reasons why I have not being blogging for a long time... but I only have one main reason:-

I just do not know what to blog anymore.

Its not that I don't want to blog about it... its just, like I said before in my previous post - I think I have nothing to blog about.

Furthermore... at the moment, I am having a sort of an idea which, I do not know whether it will come to realization of making it work - wanting to create a social network site. Not just any social network but one... mainly about movies.

I love movies - I even create another blog about movies. Alas, it is still not happening (for that blog).

I would love to create a social network about movies, doing it right and making it happen.

Resources are low, and once I realize how it will be, I will be looking for people whom wants to contribute or having the same dream to making it real.

Till then, I know this is the final month for 2010... in truth, many bad things happen. It is a horrible year for me and I hope next year will be a better one, better than what I have gone through.

Till then, if you, dear readers, still reading my blog post... thank you. I will try to blog again... if I have that strength to do it..

Yours sincerely...

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An incident happen on Merdeka Eve

2010-08-31T22:52:00.000+08:00

Dear readers,

I know it has been a while since I post my last, but there is something I always wanted to post but some how I restrain myself from doing so as I do not want to look for trouble. And now... I believe I can not help it but to post it myself.

Just recently I read about this poor guy who got attacked on the eve of Independence Day. Yes, Malaysia's Merdeka Day was a few hours and something happened to him. It was something that has been bugging me of what is truly going on in a country I was born in.... and now, one person share's his account of his plight of what happen to him when he was helpless (with his friend) and how the help of authorities did not do anything at all... because their word is considered the law.

Read the Link and judge yourself... are we truly living as "1 Malaysia" as it should be?

Yours truly,

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On the path of the unknown...

2010-08-11T10:48:00.000+08:00

Dear readers,

Just yesterday I went for a job interview. I am not sure how well it goes but somehow I felt it is a little shorter than the first interviewee, whom spent a good 20 over minutes compare to mine. In truth... this is actually my first interview since 10 years.

I was a bit anxious and I can't describe the feeling when I was in the room. Two ladies asked me a few questions, I comply until (and probably) the head of the company just jumps right in, listen to what I have to say, grab the employee interview form, goes through my CV (twice) and then just put it aside and ask me two questions:-

"What can you describe about yourself that you have done a great achievement?"

&

"What can you add to yourself that you are good at?"

I did my explanation on the first and the second question... knowing myself I rather not gloat about it, I just say none. It was just that, he said to me he will notify me if I got the job or not by next week. Knowing myself giving a natural expression (and people always interpret it wrong), he explain to me it is probably by this weekend I will know. Shake hands and left the premise.

Frankly speaking... I felt relief. And even more frankly speaking, I think I know the outcome from the interview... unless of course, there will be some surprises.

On the way back to my old office, I think if I ever fit into that job position. Still, I still wonder what is going on with the other four companies that put me into "under consideration" even. I let not think about all these things as there are other important things in life I need to consider.

At this moment, I am at this path which is so near to the crossroads. There are things I need to consider what will happen - surprisingly, these things are probably those that I am wondering if ever will it take me to something good or bad. This year alone is even worst than last year. Times were bad - there are those that suffered a lot and some are lucky still afloat. I am one of those that suffered and afloat in-between. With yet to know what is going to happen next... it has been a while since I am not sure where I want to be when I was 19 years old and got my answer when I was 20 but only to know my calling. And now, I am in the same position yet again... only this time, I think I will get my true calling sooner than I think.

Life now is still something I ponder about... but at the moment... it is still good....

Yours truly,

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It is that time of month again...

2010-07-06T10:30:00.000+08:00

Dear readers,

I do not about you but once a while, I always have this feeling of not blogging anything. I just do not know what to blog, what to write about and then when I do, I just do not have the feeling of doing it. This was much similar to the other online daily journal called "Plurk" and I had a reason why I do not plurk there anymore because I do not see a reason to do so.

Now as for blogging... I did try to give a reason and any reason to keep on blogging and somehow, I have past blogs I do not continue anymore. I do not know... I want to blog about things but sadly, not about my personal life... or maybe some parts I do not mine blogging about it.

It is just I still do not know what reason for me to continue... and maybe, there are certain things maybe (and maybe) I should focus on a different direction for blogging.

Right now I am in a state of mind that just feels... blank. So in the mean time, I can say that at the moment and since it is already not that often, I will post a blog when I do have something to blog about. I wonder if you readers have this same feeling at all...

Yours truly,

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My Mind is the Scene of the Crime

2010-06-25T12:18:00.001+08:00

Dear readers,

Sometimes I wonder what are my dreams are telling me. It was scary at first when each time whenever I go, I had this sense of deja-vu feeling that I have been there before or have done something that I had done twice. It was my recent trip to Langkawi with Ree Nee and her parents that I visited Perdana Museum last Monday, and it was a rainy Monday in Langkawi... I had a sense of feeling that I was there before.

And the scary part is, in all my 33 years of my life... this was the first time I been to Langkawi. It was in one of former Prime Minister Dr. Mahathir's famous hall of awards that I noticed a portrait and two main doors that when I was talking to Ree Nee, the words that came out of my mouth had a ring of familiarity. The more scary part that I stood there, looking at the two doors that there was in front of me... in my dream, there was a tornado brewing in the rain. The dream that was many years ago just pop in and I wonder... what does it mean.

Dreams like these comes and go and mostly, there are no meanings but it just happened to be there. Some of my dreams of words I spoke, things I do and what I have seen, they do come true few years later. Dreams I have forgotten but it is telling me something that I just can not figure out what it was. As time goes by, I hardly dream much and when I do dream, it was when I am dead tired and the dreams that come... they are not realistic. What scares me the most is knowing when it is real and how real it feels... is what comes after few years later. Parts of it I feel was not necessary but why is it there in the first place remains a mystery. And to this day, I shudder how it works even though it feels unnecessary but some of my dreams... shown me a future I do not wish to see.

Where the world is heading, I am scared one of my dreams will come true one day. My mind seems to be telling me something... maybe it is telling me the future that I need to piece together... before it happen.

I do not know if your dreams, dear readers, have any of them ever came true... but for me, to know it came true in the sense of deja-vu... I wish it never happen...

Maybe the upcoming movie Inception will tell me and I hope it will

Yours truly

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In Two More Days I Will Be In Langkawi...

2010-06-17T11:45:00.000+08:00

Dear readers,

In two days me and Ree Nee will be going to Langkawi together with her parents for a vacation. At the moment, I feel kind of depress with what is going on in this world. The saddest part is, it also dampens my mood. I know I have not being blogging for almost a month... maybe I can not find the words for it.

Still, looking at how things are these days... I wish everything would be better...

And I hope things are going alright for you too, dear readers.

Till then, will blog about my trip (come to think of it, two of my trips I have yet to finish blogging about it. I am so terrible as a blogger). Hope your weekends be filled with joy.

Yours truly

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I wanna watch Toy Story 3

2010-05-26T09:45:00.000+08:00

Dear readers,

It has been years since I last watched Toy Story. I was only 18 years old and was unprepared for what's to come at the time. At my age usually guys would be dating, concentrating on PC games or thinking about learning how to drive a new car. For me... I was still watching cartoons. I love cartoons because they entertain and they have this sense of escape fantasy for me to imagine what would it be like if the world is a cartoon and I would at that age imagine myself going to a whole new world (like "An American Tail") or fighting a good fight with transform robots (like "Transformers"). Or going into space battles like Rick Hunter (from "Robotech"). So when Disney's Pixar released Toy Story in 1995 - I was blown away by everything I had forgotten as a child - I used to collect random toys just like the movie.

My heart was touched while I watched Andy had numerous different toys in his collection that he kept throughout the years as a child. It reminds me of myself of some toys I always beg my parents to buy for me:-

1 Transformer Dino-Bot
4 vehicle related M.A.S.K. toy
2 He-Man & the Masters of the Universe action figure
A dozen of Star Wars toys
Numerous food toys

And other toys I hardly remember. Buying toys during the 80s was hard when it was the year of recession and my parents are making ends meet. Of course as time goes by, watching Toy Story seriously makes me feel guilty as I have no idea where are my toys (after moving from one house to another) now... and that saddens me. Still, Toy Story open up my eyes.

As time goes by, Disney's Pixar kept on rolling with 10 animated CG films and now... after waiting more than a decade - Toy Story 3 is coming... in 3D!!!

Well, the gang are back! Woody, Buzz, Mr. & Mrs. Potato, Jessie, Bullseye, Bo Peep, Rex, Hamm, Slinky, the Sarge and his army men, those space 3 eye ball aliens, Mike and others will return... with more new toys! Well, I can't wait to see how the gang will interact in their new environment!

After browsing through the appearance of the new toys - there are a few I want to see most:-

After watching the trailer, I believe he is one that will be the funniest toy ever to interpret. As Ken, he will be quite hilarious on how he will pull off the punchlines and wonder whether he will join the gang because... I somehow felt he will be the most funny to watch!

I always wonder since there is Rex, what will he react when he sees... Trixie! She's probably one toy that does behave like Rex - bubbly and a little anxious and scared. Maybe she's totally opposite but what would the reaction be like when she meets Rex.

When there is Lenny the Binoculars and Mike... there is Chatter Telephone. I believe physical electronic toys works well and truthfully, will Chatter able to connect anything? That is something I would want to see...

If there is one thing I truly believe that is missing, is that there has to be one toy that is smart. Maybe bookworm is a smart toy. Or a slow toy... or a toy that speaks wisdom. Maybe he is a toy that leads the gang out to find Andy. Who knows... but I know he maybe playing a pivotal role in Toy Story 3.

While Toy Story 1 & 2 has Emperor Zurg, I believe Lots-O-Huggin Bear is probably the toy that wants everything as it is and he will stop at nothing to make it stay that way. I have a feeling after watching the trailer, he maybe the toy that will stop Woody and the gang from looking for Andy

It is just two weeks away before Toy Story 3 in 3D will be release... and I can't wait to watch it! Pixar so far have not disappointed me in their films, and what brought the magic in making it real is the original Toy Story that gave them the success in making a string of great animated movies. I am sure you are looking forward to watching it...

Yours truly

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On the way to Jaya One for some "He He, Ha Ha"

2010-05-21T15:55:00.000+08:00

Dear readers,

I have never been to any theater shows in my life. And seriously I do want to go but just never have the thought of going for one because I am not sure what is good. So when I was inform by Ree Nee that Nuffnang was organizing one for the first 50 people that can write out a joke - I take it as a chance.

We both got in and were the first 50 people.

On the way there from my parent's house to Jaya One, the occasional traffic jam is always there. Taking the short-cut through SS 17, we manage to get there on time to get a pair of tickets each.

So we were early, waiting for my parents to come and then everyone goes in and the show starts.

For me, there are parts of the show that are funny and some parts of the show weren't. There are also points of being a little draggy and sometimes, it is also a little ridiculous. Overall it was good but not that great. I realize during the entire show, Mano Maniam definitely together with his actors he is a one man show stopper.

Still, I can not help but feel what the entire play is all about. I am sure with the current situation in Malaysia of what it is, it just felt what its meant to be is what it wants it to be... but in a hilarious way. True to the core, Caught in the Middle is where we are as Malaysians truly caught in the middle.

If you enjoy some political jokes, I suggest give this a try.

Yours truly,

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Lyrics In Their FaceBook Wall? Where's The Open/Close Quote?!?

2010-05-13T09:31:00.001+08:00

Dear readers,

I do not know about you but once a while, my friends loved putting some lyrics in their Facebook wall. And seriously when they do it - they never use open/close quotes. Okay, maybe they are not quotes but at least would be good to inform anyone that it is from a song. What is the point of copying a lyric and post it on the wall when not everyone else is that musically incline? Not everyone would know what the music lyric is coming from and furthermore, what's the point of putting it there? Only one or two reply and the worst of it not everyone else would know. True, maybe the intention would be for someone and I respect that but... damn it, use these "" for *** sake.

It pisses me off whenever I see someone do it. My mind would go a wonder about thinking "is he/she alright?", "are they in trouble?" or anything that needed some advice or help. Instead... its for fun. It's for because they like their music. Instead, they just do it to get some damn attention. Seriously... if I can reach across through the monitor entering FaceBook Sphere... I want to strangle them.

Use the damn open/close quotes for *** sake.

Yours truly

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More of a Hubber than a Blogger

2010-05-12T13:52:00.000+08:00

Dear readers,

I realize I am good at doing Hubs than I am doing a blog... I also realized how good I am doing reviews, which I had written some and post it to local channels which was read and appreciated. My audience is not big but I was given some good comments on what I wrote. Being a hubber was an opportunity nearer to become a writer I always wanted to be. Yes, as writers we do not earn much and sadly Hub Pages is not paying me much for all I have wrote but I kind of like it that way. It gave me a reason to write my reviews on films more compare to my short reviews which I wrote to a small forum community which has less than 70 members for more than 5 years.

The good thing about Hub pages is I can write almost anything. Anything that you want to write and just being read by anybody around the world. The subject matter is endless but still categorizing the topic is still limited. So far, what I have wrote are just reviews on movies and the exploration on certain elements of movie topics not done before. I did wrote about my experience in Tao Restaurant and so far, that has the most read hub I have ever written compare to my movie hubs. I was exploring on the subject of philosophy, wanting to share my life experiences but can not seem to finish it.

In all, I realize what are my strengths but my weaknesses is basically my own - can't seem to get out of the lazy pillow. But when I am motivated, I could spend quite a long time writing up as I type and finished it with some satisfaction. As a blogger... well, in the past I failed three times. I guess I would say I never did manage to continue my blogs the way I had done before. I created a few, and all of them are abandon.

When I met Ree Nee, she had a blog going on and urge me to blog about myself. I thought to myself can I really blog again and this time can I even keep one going? I seriously really do not know and turns out I am quite random in blogging. There are times when between my blog post they are pretty far apart and sometimes once a week of a post. What to blog is actually sort of an issue for me - basically, I just felt and unsure what to blog. My old blog post are my usual rantings and quite a number of random real-life issues where experiences of my life are the usual meets of annoying and irritating people (like this post), Other times, well... I know I have not blog about my other experiences in Bangkok and so because I can't just seem to get the words out of my mind and only when I do hubs, everything falls into place.

Still, I am trying and now I wanted to write a short story which somehow is lost somewhere after typing just one page.For blogs, if anything new or eventful I would blog about it but in most days when I don't blog but wanted to, I really do need to find something to blog about instead for the sake of blogging. But as a hubber... I believe that is what I am good at. As a blogger... I am not sure...

Till then...

Yours truly

When A Blogger Gets... Blog Block

2010-05-11T15:59:00.000+08:00

Dear readers,

Have you ever have one of those days that is similar to any writer? Having a blogger's... block?

I am currently having one right now. Well, it is like this - I want to blog something but somehow... I am at a lost. Seriously, I had this before when I write and when I do reviews. I had it even worst that take days to get it done. Of course, doing movie reviews is much easier since it will be fresh in memory (all my reviews are written in Hub Pages and Bukisa) and I can post it less than an hour. But for blogging... sometimes I do need to think - materials and words to come up with... and similar to what I had done before in the past as a writer, it was not easy to come up with words.

If you see the dates, you may notice sometimes between my blog post, they can be quite far apart. Sometimes can be near. Sometimes I can just blog it and sometimes... well, I just do not know what to blog.

If only I can get my bearings straight then maybe I can blog about something. Sadly, I even neglect the other blog which I set up and now returning to it just did not motivate me to do more.

Have you experience before this as a writer/blogger?

Well, until I get something straight to what to blog... I will type it out. In the meantime... I am blog block.

Yours truly

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When Racism Hits At An All Time Low...

2010-05-05T15:29:00.001+08:00

Dear readers,

I know the topic is nothing new and it has been around for a long time and somehow, one person makes me angry so easily, I just never thought he would succeed in doing it. I never thought based on my roots that being a Chinese and being called as inferior race reminds me of how the Jews were being labeled as one by the Nazis. Living in Malaysia had its ups and downs. There are many races here living in this country of mine - Malays, Chinese, Indians, Vietnamese, Burmese, Americans, Australians, British and so forth. And I know other countries too have different types of races too. Some can live in harmony while others just sneer with remarks that manage to get-away from everything. I had my share of remarks last time when there was a discussion about religion a long time ago (which sadly, if I can only show you the link which somehow it is gone) that I had typed so much for three days, finally it ended with silence.

Today, I read in a forum about a review of one Hong Kong movie entitled Ip Man 2. I wrote a review about it and I know the movie was not as good as the first film. Just after a week over, one forumer had said a lot of things that not just makes me unhappy but others as well.

This is what he said and I quote:-

"this movie is intended to be a homage of bruce lee movies. sadly the chinese still have this inferiority complex, the chinese vs white man scene are still there. Come on, the colonial era ended, the cold war ended, its time for the chinese to move the fvck on "

Imagine the response he got it and how many others were quite angry over this remark. He calls himself malayneum - a person who teaches a class in Columbia "TV, Media & Culture" which I believe is in the U.S. and claim that he has great deal of validity of what he claims above. When I do a little research about who this person is and if what he claims about his living, which the link is here, how much can one person hides his face behind one single lie he makes? A man that hides his face behind a PC... and what he said was real racist remark.

You be the judge.

Yours truly,

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When you hit rock bottom...

2010-05-01T21:12:00.000+08:00

Dear readers,

Times like this is is to show we are hitting the bad times. Seriously, I know I am hitting at the bad time of times. I believe most people are too.

People are not buying.

And when people are not buying, companies are not making profits. For me, last month was a bad month. April clearly shows we are at the worst of times. How can the government confirm that our economy is picking up? How can it give all the faith to us when in reality we are seeing the worst of it? Few months ago some shops are open with hope. Now, it's closed down. Normal chinese coffee shops used to be buzzed with workers eating in and now, there are only few that comes down during lunch.

When you see such bad times, you realize we are not doing too well. And when it comes for us... that's where we need to see what to do next. At the moment, I am looking at options... and hopefully when I found some, my future will be brighter.

So dear readers, if you are like me facing this problem... its time to do something about it. I know I am now... thanks to my love one who urge me to do so... thank you, dear.

Yours truly,

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Our First Year Anniversary... at Tao!

2010-04-23T23:42:00.014+08:00

Dear readers,

It has been one over year since my life with Ree Nee started in a relationship that is fill with wonderful memories, the funny moments and the small moments that I share with her together. Life has everything that I share with her and it was a journey I am glad that it is her I want to be with. Life before was never like this... and now, everything is complete.

Although it was just a few days past after our anniversary together, tonight we celebrate in one of the nicest fine dining restaurant that Ree Nee introduced to me... Tao.

This recently open fine dining place of all-you-can-eat situated in Sunway Giza, Kota Damansara was the 3rd branch in the whole of Malaysia (the first two was in Penang). Ree Nee was actually craving for Tao after reading her friend's blog and discovered by accident that there is one in Kota Damansara. After much of her raving about the food, she decided we should go and eat at her expense.

I was quite curious why she was craving for it... and then once I am there, it is simply amazing that the food that was serve... taste so good that every other food I had tasted is lost in memory. There were two sessions available to eat - one between the time of 5:30pm till 8pm and 8:30pm till 11pm. I choose the later as I doubt had enough time to eat and made the reservation one day before hand. Traffic was bad but we manage to reach there on time and started with good service... and what good service they provided.

For only RM 58++ per person (with a later 10% discount), we had the following:-

Motoyaki Scallop (3 dishes)
Teppan Salmon
Salmon Hiroyaki
Lamb Teriyaki (2 dishes)
Age Gyoza
Smoked Salmon with Mix Veg Roll
Crab Meat with Cheese (3 dishes)
Beef (3 pieces) & Chicken (3 pieces) to be cook by chef
Fukahire Chawa Mushi
Saba Shioyaki
Raspberry Vanilla & Green Tea Ice Cream
Plain Miso Soup

To say in short, we ate away as much as we could and for that price, its simply worth it! We had a great time eating all the food we can eat and drank a free-flow of Orange and Peach juice. We spend more than an hour just eating away. And simply... the food taste so good!

When we are done, it was a complete self-satisfaction and we did not even ate more than anything else. The service (once again) was good, we were approach by a supervisor asking how was the food and from time to time our free-flow of drinks is covered well... much better than any other eatery places where I had to ask for refills! After the payment, I was given two cards - each of these cards are made for a complete of 12 chops and both cards had two chops each. To get the rest of the 10 we will receive a nice member card for a lifetime.

Dear... thank you for the meal. This Sunday... get ready for something more.

To you readers in Malaysia, if you have not try Tao... please go and try. Seriously, there is much to try about this place and the service is great. Enjoy the pics.

Yours truly...

P/S:- Should be back soon with Bangkok Memories and my birthday too. Sorry for the delay.

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Busy busy busy...

2010-04-19T12:03:00.003+08:00

Dear readers,

Yes, I have been busy writing, busy looking for materials to write and not to mention, busy trying to get some moolahs too. Well, the difficult part would be getting the moolahs since the economy is not doing too well and even though articles of saying 'we are showing good signs' just do not cut it.

I feel the real truth is not anything is published at all - that people's action on the street is telling us how bad it is the situation can be. On the other hand, people are spending more on groceries than anything else but eating out depends on people and where they ate.

Life is a bit tough now... but more worries are the news we read lately. Natural disasters, riots, war... even some meltdown. And a private funded company wants to built a bunker... that kinda brings me back to the days where me and a classmate of mine thinking of building one ourselves too.

Silly... but now seems like it might come true for a price.

Well, I will seriously have to get back to blogging and have to finish up Bangkok Memories... argh! Better get things straight... finish and do not repeat mistakes...

Yours truly...

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Whatever happen to... me!

2010-04-05T18:09:00.003+08:00

Dear readers,

Yes, you must have wonder whatever happen to me. Where could I have gone? Where is my next post for Bangkok Memories? What happen in the past three weeks after my birthday?

Well...

I have been busy. Work was there... and so was new work. I am writing... again!

Yup... I never thought I am going back to writing once more. And I never thought Ree Nee found me two wonderful sites for me to start... and to earn my keep. I just hope I can keep writing and earn more from it. But it is a tough market to start and it is not easy to start even. With a third site, I realize it is something where I can truly show my creativity... despite my grammar problems too.

But don't you worry... I will be back! Once I get my bearings, I will return to post the next Bangkok Memories (and seriously I apologize for the delay!) and will finish it up with more post.

Stay tune, dear readers...

Yours truly...

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Happy... 33th?

2010-03-08T01:14:00.004+08:00

Dear readers,

Bangkok Memories Part III will be coming soon after this post... and today... it's my birthday.

Wow... I am 33 years old. The passing of each day and right now I am 33...

I can't imagine I am now 33, 1/2 way to 35 and that's considered where guys are steady and pretty much mature around that age. Well, most guys do anyway...

Being 33 doesn't feel like 33. It does not feel like "hey, I am 33 and what would the day be like around that time?" or " maybe I'll get a mug that says I am 33" or better yet... I'll just say I am 33 to some young people and they will go "come on, you don't look that old..."

Sigh...

Well, in truth I feel like I am at the crossroads. Today was the day I want to look back and wonder what happen and how I become who I became now. Looking back... I realize I changed a lot over what happen to me on the day I turn 18 - it was the turning point in my life. I was a failure when it happened. I never thought about the importance of life and much about the value of money. Nor even the future. I took the days as it comes by as it was - spending the days to make myself happy only.

When I became a failure - there was nobody around to help me. There was nobody there for me and my life in what I believe before shattered. I cut out from everyone - I isolate from everyone but deep inside I wanted someone to talk to me, to be there for me and to make me understand what went wrong.

1 and the 1/2 years I kept quiet to myself... until my best buddy found me. He knew what happen to me but I look down at myself more than anything in life and all I wanted to just keep moving and be done with it. I started working when I was young as a sales assistant in a comic book store. I started to learn but not enough and I started to open up a little even though I was afraid to open up myself. Throughout working, I was backstab by someone I trust and I realize opportunity comes and it was something I never wanted - going back to studying. At that moment I realize I needed to learn more but I am still afraid of being a failure again. But my dad said I should and I took that chance.

College life was fun but I realize now there is much I needed to do - and the importance of study and career. While during college days I learn much about being a failure, I also learn about being vigilant in studies. For each time I face a roadblock, I learn to break it through.

In the end - I succeed and became a graduate.

Life move forwards and I met many types of people - in working and outside. My experiences were vast and for each people I meet, I see a little bit of something I learn and mold myself to become better. Of course, there was a time I was depress and do not know what direction of life I must do.

My ex-girlfriend taught me something - the bitterness of reality. I was left with the worst situation that any guy never thought could handle - where betrayal and lies comes in one or two, for me it was a Pandora Box. It affects everyone and for some who knows her that I never thought could happen. And it happened.

That lesson taught me to buck up and realized that I am not that young anymore. My four years with her was a waste of time that I should had understood what is important. And she left a huge mess for me that I bear in my two years being single again.

2009 was the beginning of being better... and 2009, I met Ree Nee.

Ree Nee has taught me many things and I have taught her about other values and importance of money and a few other things too. Although we have some differences, we learn about each other every day. Last year, Ree Nee gave me something special and I kept her presents. It was not bought but made... and I cherish them until I even wrote about it on a gift for Ree Nee I made for her.

Still, this year I told her on my birthday I do not need to be anything special. Being with her will make me happy... she always have, and will be in the future.

And I still feel on my birthday, I never felt I am special... even now. That has always being my belief... but Ree Nee will make me feel special... and I thank her for that.

Sigh... 33. 1/2 till I am 35. Getting older... and being older, I better fulfill my end of the bargain in what I plan for the future...

Yours truly

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Some motorist are cowards... like "BDM 7069"!

2010-02-24T08:56:00.005+08:00

Dear readers,

Some mornings everyone had to get stuck in the rush-hour. Even though from my parent's house to my workplace is nearby, getting stuck in traffic is never easy. But I love Wednesdays... and why I love Wednesday because I can wake up a little late...

Out of the house by 8:11am and into not that heavy traffic but I know between BU 11 to Damansara Uptown there is bound to have 3 reasons why it is jam:-

1). NKVE Toll is nearby and people much further always uses my area to cut through traffic
2). Traffic lights gone awry
3). Traffic police officers do not know the situation above the bridge and sometimes make wrong judgments.

I was listening to Ronan Keating's Destination album and was stuck at the top of the bridge. Knowing the fact that this time it is the traffic police judgment, I did not care much about it and just wait like the rest of the people on the road just wanting to get out but for me it was just the songs I want to hear from the album (it has been awhile). After passing through the bridge to make a right turning, everyone is stuck and then I saw two motorist trying to get out of traffic from a two lane road to a three lane jam. Everyone just wants to get out fast.

What happen was the first motorist was trying real hard to get out of the road but getting himself in-between cars to ride off and then all of a sudden, he look at my car and his head turn to look at me. I look at his direction and I see there is some space in-between and he look at me and with a disgust look did a head signal saying I was too close to him. I was puzzle as to I am sure I was not that close to him nor did I touch him even.

What he did next was very unforgivable - he kick my car and quickly turn to the left trying to get out again but in just a good 10 seconds, I manage to get a good look at his motor plate.

"BDM 7069"

At first, my anger rose and I felt like I wanted to press my honk crazily and come out of my car and scream my lungs out! I was angry even more as the traffic ease up. I wanted to scream and show my hatred to such cowards that rode off and thinks they own the road and wanting to give him a piece of my mind about why he is on the wrong...

And then I look around and realize... I am stuck in a traffic jam. And If I did any of those things... I became a selfish person and I will made the rush-hour even worst. Yes, he kick my car. Like any car owners we all care for our vehicles. I for one will be sad if my car was in a devastated condition.

He just kick my car, rode off and that is all he did and after I park my car near my office, I check and it was nothing at all nor a new scratch (my car has been a victim of abuse of scratches not knowing who are the culprits that appears like lacerations from some serial scratcher) and that is what is important. No dents or broken bumper at all...

At least... I got his motor plate number to blog about it... *smirk*

Yours truly

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Bangkok Memorable – Thai Food & Some Other We Can Eat (The Culture of Bangkok Meals & Drinks – Part Two)

2010-02-24T01:40:00.021+08:00

One place we did not try - some tasty fried fish

Dear readers,

Food is everywhere! Where you go, where you look and where you smell it – there is a chance of eating authentic food whether it is local or some worldly influence to the country itself; it is still Thai. Where the locals and sidewalk food are concern, there is plenty to try. Ree Nee and I tried twice on the sidewalk but we tried a few in food court. There are some language barriers there when it comes to ordering at the sidewalk but food courts are easy as most tourist venture there. We did try some fast food just for the experience of the culture and it is very different compare to ours.

1). One Sidewalk Taste – The Authentic Taste of Thai Noodles

One night we ask the reception of where we stayed in of where we can get some local food in Bangkok. Nice enough the lady behind the counter told us it is just the next road we can try some food there during the night. We walked over to the next road and saw a few roadside stalls that just sell snacks, one small café that does sell some local Thai food and a western bistro restaurant. Ree Nee ask should we go further down and I look there are some lights and towards the end was quite dark and thought maybe we should go towards until the next turning of the road and if there is nothing there, we just settle with the small café.

Lucky we did not.

Yes, of all the little lights on the road we never thought we discover a stretch of glittering lights and funky disco techno music playing just around that corner. Thai ladies were standing outside calling some male foreigners to go in with bouncers looking on. It was like another world out there that reminds me of Las Vegas, except in Thai style. We just walk across from one end of that corner to the other end and along the way we saw more roadside snack stalls that serve some exotic food (namely fried grasshoppers, maggots and cockroaches; sorry did not get a chance to take any pics). Of course, the intention of eating those were quickly left behind by passing straight on just in case the Thai ladies pick us up and we end up facing the main road where all of a sudden what flashing lights there is are gone (or more like just behind us).

There are more roadside food stalls and there were two of them to consider. There was one that has something unique and different about the noodles that serve in small portion and many are trying out the stall while the other looks like serving porridge and Wan Tan Mee. We ended up eating the something unique and it was a good call.

Set up next to a telephone booth (we do not even see that in Malaysia do we?), many people just order their food over there and we were not sure how to order or whether the noodle seller understands us. Ree Nee ask me to order and I just walk there and just in my own way told the noodle seller of ordering something basic but with two different noodle styles (was told one is Ban Mee and the other is Mihun). We sat and food was served.

The taste is exquisite. Neither that spicy nor sweet but there is a nice balance in it. The portion of the bowl is small and it cost 30 Baht each bowl. Drinks are self-serve – cold water using their small silver cups. There are four different sauce mini cups you can choose from to add flavour but we just ate it away and it was satisfying.

2). One Sidewalk Taste – The Authentic Taste of Thai Hot Snacks

We only had two – one I was not sure whether it is beef or pork meat on sticks while the other was fat sausages stuff with… God knows what it was inside! It does look yummy but the fact that once eaten, the taste was somewhat… left with nothing much to desire. For the meat stick, it is tough! Seriously even one bite and to gnaw (not even chewing) the food out is a real challenge. Maybe it was not pick up by anyone hence was sitting there waiting to be pick up by dear old sorry me. One bite and pull… HARD!

They should be use for bulletproof vest…

The sausage on the other hand is interesting. Spongy and fat, it looks like a fat… “P” (sorry, this is a PG-13 reading material). I mean, I look at it and what came to mind when I put it in my mouth and look in the mirror is just plain... disgusting. Even Ree Nee thought so.

Anyway…

It looks like a Taiwan sausage (fat version). However, one bite, all the juices of oily and ginger and something sour just do not feel right about it. It left some sort of nasty taste in it and chewing ½ of the sausage nearly makes me want to finish it instantly and drink more mineral water to flush it out. It looks good on the outside… but inside it feels just not my taste. Maybe it is the taste that Thai people likes it… but for me and Ree Nee, it was hard to eat.

Look ma! Sausage in my mouth! (Ree Nee looks disgusted... but actually she was trying hard tearing the beef meat on the stick

3). Fast Foods – The Culture Taste of Bangkok

We gotten a chance to eat two famous fast food restaurants that is well known globally – McDonalds and KFC. I have got to say it is different compare to Malaysia (much like it is for anywhere else even) and to be able to taste food that you thought was around your neighbourhood might surprise you completely.

The spicy drummets - they taste good but also taste very spicy!

My miserable Samurai Pork Burger...

McDonalds in Bangkok had about 75% in similarity when it comes to choices while 25% of it there are some pretty interesting selections to try. Ree Nee ordered her food with drummets that is rather spicy. Not even KFC’s Hot & Spicy can be compared to the drummets. I ordered Samurai Pork Burger (why they even call it Samurai Pork Burger is beyond me) and one bite, reminds me of my trip in China where I tasted a Pork Burger (also McDonalds) that just do not feel right as a burger. The use of teriyaki sauce on pork burger just don’t work too well with it.

Look how small their chicken are...

KFC on the other hand is… well, ordering two piece chicken and what we got was rather two “small” piece chicken. Hot & Spicy but not really that spicy even. The drinks that comes with the meals are glass instead of paper cups. Some how, between both fast food meals it does taste as if it’s cultured Thai. Believe me, even food such similarities to ours does not taste the same even.

4). Varieties that is available in one place - The Food Courts!

Yup, while in Bangkok we went to three different food courts and taste different dishes – more authentic Thai food! Well… almost authentic to some extend though.

Yummy Tom Yum Gung

Ree Nee always wanted to try Tom Yum Gung and she got to try it twice! For her the taste was rich and sweet but a little spicy. Unlike ours here (proclaim that it’s Thai in Malaysia), I got a chance to taste it and it does taste good! Of course I also realize I need to drink a lot of water or else ended up with a dry throat. Thai Fried Rice is almost similar to Malaysian version though but a little spicy.

Now I love Hor Chien (Fried Egg Oyster) and in Thailand, there are three different Hor Chien dishes to try. What I and Ree Nee had was Hot Plate Hor Chien – very exquisite and delicious and sticky too. It is an amazing dish and if you ever come across this dish in Thailand, please order this (if you love Hor Chien that is)!

Chicken Rice Thai Style preparation is much different than ours. Basically – its fried chicken not roasted. A rather dull taste and unsatisfying one I might add. I can only say to try Chicken Rice in food court you have to see whether you are in a hot tourist spot because the preparation feels like targeted to the westerners.

Ah, Green Curry Chicken Rice. I love Green Curry Chicken… except this one which Ree Nee had it (towards our last day in the airport; we had our dinner at Lee’s Café) to her was not satisfying. I find it quite alright except it does taste like what most Malaysian Thai restaurants prepare.

5). Never say no to American Breakfast… and some drinks!

Where we stayed we had complimentary American Breakfast meals for two. Just next to the hostel we stayed there is a small diner that serves some western food over there. I and Ree Nee had a chance to choose between two different sets of American Breakfast. Always serve with toast breads that comes with butter and jam and scramble eggs, you can have a choice of either a bowl of cereal with slice banana or two pieces of ham. Morning breakfast I never thought tasted this good… and we wish we can have more of it!

Now when it comes to drinks, we tried different flavours and none can be found in Malaysia. Of course, you might wonder how come the packaging is in Japanese or Chinese but seriously, they taste good. The orange bottle itself taste sweet but also includes some jelly in it that compliments the taste. Very refreshing and tasty. There’s a Banana Caramel drink which Ree Nee bought and it taste nice. While others I never gotten a chance to taste it (or even took some photos of it), the photos below will tell it’s own story.

Banana Caramel Juice and Orange Jelly Juice... yummy!

Some Vitagen drink

Next – Getting Around in Bangkok with Transportation PLUS – Hi-Hostels (highly recommended place to stay!). And here are more pics and some food we brought back (doggie treats too)

All the dog treats at RM 50...

More snacks...

... and Ree Nee's Pocky flavours of the world!

Yours truly

P/S:- Most Thai locals when it comes to their meals they always add a lot of spicy red hot pepper and sugar. I do not understand that portion as to why they add that to their dishes but I did try it and it does make a difference when it comes to taste. But to add a lot of sugar... that is rather scary!

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Bangkok Memorable – How We Get About (The Places, The Convenience, The Sight-Seeing Places – Part One)

2010-02-16T23:07:00.022+08:00

The One Place We Did Not Go - Wat Arun (Temple of Dawn)

Dear readers,

Some places are worth visiting. Some places are worth travelling to and pay extra to reach there. And there are some places sometimes pretty much mind-boggling. Here’s what I can best describe from what I have seen over there:-

The Places (to Shop):-

1). Chatuchak Weekend Market (situated near Mo Chit, best transport is BTS Skytrain)

Most people remember Thailand as “The Land of Smiles”. When we visited Chatuchak Weekend Market on our first day, I realize that it is the beginning of “The Land of Forever”. Seriously, this is one big market that you could get lost!

Many locals and tourist will always come and buy their stuff there...

From 7am to 6pm, this is a “must-visit” if you love to buy cheap stuff. They have food, clothes, souvenirs, pets, crafts, flowers, phones… almost everything. And I did not manage to see all of it even. While me and Ree Nee was there, we only got two hours to shop. I manage to get a nice Bermuda, two magnets and some drinks there. Ree Nee did manage to get a cheap sunglasses which she like and lots of pet treats (13 packets for only RM 50!). It’s a mind-boggling place!

The never ending place - seriously hug and you will get lost!

When we first enter, it was a small field and I realize lots of people just lay around and when we enter the place I believe was the back door, we just started walking and walking and I did not realize how big this place is until we were lost. We did not panic as we just kept looking around and saw what’s available to browse. There’s seriously lots of stuff to look at! The pics below can tell you what we saw there!

Sadly, bargaining power seems to be not the biggest as many of the prices are slashed. Of course, if you buy more than 3, they will give you a nice price, which sometimes just feel quite cheap but not that cheap. And I thought Connaught Night Market is big but this is huge! One of the best place to visit!

Night life in Bangkok is seriously busy...

2). MBK (situated near National Stadium Station)

With only 6 levels, you can seriously find some good stuff there. The 6^th floor is one of the best floors to visit for stuff (level 1 to 5 is like any other mall out in Malaysia). Ree Nee did not manage to see everything but she did manage to get her nails manicure at least. There are lots of shops to go for and get. Sadly, I did not manage to take any photos over there for show but it’s a decent place to go to. I recall there’s a shop that would trade your old PS3 game for a new one less than RM 100 (can be as cheap as RM 9.90 even!). The foodcourt there is worth a go if you want to try their food.

3). Siam Paragon (situated at Siam Station)

If you are looking for some high-class places like KL’S Pavillion, this is one of those places you can visit. About 5 stories high that includes some shopping places with brand names. Kinokuniya, Starbucks and even their very own Cinema. Did not manage to find stuff there but it’s worth a look. Got myself a movie for only RM 9.90!

4). Centralworld Plaza (situated near Chit Lom, you need to walk at the sky bridge to reach there)

This place is like our 1 Utama – except it’s longer. Me and Ree Nee manage to get some cool Thai CDs over there and ate at Sizzlers! I paid for RM 77 for two course meals but freeflow of salad, soup and desert! Sorry again, no pics for this place inside.

5). The Platinum Fashion Mall (situated near Centralworld Plaza; you need to walk to reach there)

This is one place I felt considered as a girl’s dream come true and any men’s nightmare! With 7 floors high (including the basement), each floor has about more than 200 stores, mostly small and compact in each lot. There’s lots of women’s clothes, women’s bags, women’s accessories and women’s stuff. Practically – almost everything women! (with at least 10% for men). There are over 2000 stores in this place which a huge directory to check out the stuff over there. In there, you can bargain but usually you have to buy more than just 1 item. It feels like a Petaling Street sort of place except much more cleaner and nicer looking.

We spent more than 3 hours over there and my legs were aching like hell! It’s sadly a place which I can’t take any photos too inside as it is not allowed. The place is open from 9am and close till 8pm. Ree Nee bought quite a number of clothes and handbags over there. There’s a nice foodcourt at the top floor too and each floor have at least a place to seat and drink (Black Canyon seems to be everywhere!)

Oh yes, another "The Land of Forever" is in this place - we walked and walked as if there is no end. Of course, it does end someway... but it does feel like there is no ending! "Forever" continues...

The Convenience (to buy Groceries):-

When you want to buy some food or stuff that is made from Thailand, there are a few places you want to go to if you want some authentic Thai. If you want some convenience store to go to, don’t worry – where you go you can always find on every street!

1). When you want 7Es…

While in Bangkok, I noticed something that never gotten away from my sight – 7 Elevens. I am not sure how crazy Thai people are but… there’s a hell a lot of 7 Elevens everywhere! Each street have one or even two on the same street! I counted on my trip like more than 20 in four days alone. Even the place me and Ree Nee stayed the next street and the opposite road have 3 7 Elevens in a short distance! But it’s good to go there if you need to buy mineral water to drink (the weather was very hot over there) or buy some food to munch. We did manage to find a Family Mart over there but 7 Elevens are a plenty. You can’t go wrong with it if you want to buy some convenience stuff!

Should had took some photos of the number of 7 Es we visited... since like it's not end and it's like "forever"...

Notice the "E.G.V."? It's our very own TGV Cinema... not!

2). The Big C (Thailand’s Giant)

Want to buy something cheap? Here’s a place to look for. It’s called The Big C (no idea what C stands for) and the place has quite some good stuff to buy. Bought many Thai noodles back to try out (and apparently I did try open one and to my surprise, I can even eat it raw; tasted like Mamee) and some snacks which Ree Nee bought and brought back. It’s worth checking out if you want to buy some authentic Thai ingredients over there to bring back home.

3). The Gourmet Market (Thailand’s Cold Storage)

I have heard of this placed and it’s pretty high classed. Some stuff are quite expensive to buy while other’s are quite cheap. We did bought some food over there to bring back (like Thailand’s Yellow, Green & Red curry). But one thing for sure, they have a huge selection over there with only one problem – you can even find Malaysian products as well. Many foreigners and locals shop over there. I even manage to meet a Hong Kong celebrity too but I am not sure what’s her name was.

The Sight-Seeing Places (if you want to know the history):-

One part of Bangkok is pretty much a city place like any other (and even better than our Kuala Lumpur’s Metropolitan; heck even their Skytrain and MRTs are much better than ours!) with their sky-rise buildings that’s enormous and beautiful to look at. But if you want to visit their temples and Palace, you have to go to the furthest part of Bangok, which is at the river side.

1). Wat Pho (Temple of the Reclining Buddha; situated at Pier Tha Thien N9)

This is one place so mind-boggling as you will see a 46 metre width and 15 metre high reclining Buddha covered in gold. I thought I saw a very long reclining Buddha when I was Penang but this is enormous. You need to pay 50 Baht (RM 5) to go in and there’s some Thai Massage service if you want. I find the place interesting but we did not manage to cover the entire ground and it does feels like "forever" and left for the Grand Palace

Yup, that's how far we go - the front door before we turn back...

2). The Grand Palace (a very short trip!; situated at Pier Tha Chang N10)

The first thing tour guides would take any tourist to go is the Grand Palace. In Thailand, everyone respects the King. I encounter one incident when I was about to buy a ticket to use the Skytrain, the national song was played and anyone that is government servant would stand up until the song ends. While we were there, it’s filled with many tourist and so overpopulated with people! Wanted to go into the Palace but after I saw the admission price (which is 350 Baht per person), we just took some photos outside and left the place for our next journey.

3). Siriraj Medical Museum (make sure you ate your food first before you go in…; situated at Pier Wang Lang N10)

The most interesting museum to go to… at least for me. This place is like a house of horror. There are six museums to go through and only 4 places (all in one place) you need to pay 40 Baht to go in. The most eerie to be in was Congdon Anatomical Museum. This place had many corpse embedded and encased, which seriously shows a “lot” of insides and out. Real dead people in the flesh. Very informative but anyone with a weak stomach might consider to avoid coming in. No movie can reach such realism. This is a place that really open inside out for you to see.

Sood Sangvichien Prehistoric Museum & Laboratory is much like any museum to go to – it’s prehistoric. The discovery of man and what’s dug out is all there.

The last four (Ellis Pathological Museum, Songkran Niyomsane Forensic Medicine Museum, Ouay Ketusingh Museum of History of Thai Medicine & Parasitology Museum) is a place where you pay to go in.

For Songkran Niyomsane Forensic Medicine Museum, you will see embedded and encased corpse again but one fascination about this place that it was updated with the recent Tsunami that happened in 2004 were added into the museum. Although no real corpse there but rather show real photos and fake mannequins to add-on the effect, it’s good that they show how Thai medical officers acted at that time and how they treated the wounds. After Tsunami, you will see the original sections of the museum with pictures of accidents and murder photographed there. While this section is scary, there’s even a real corpse of two dead rapist – even their fluids are dried out on the pan. Very horrific stuff.

Ellis Pathological Museum & Parasitology Museum is pretty much about disease and germs if you want to look into it. Like how one bite from this particular mosquitoe and this Thai person (real life incident) had an enormous… erm… “balls”. Anyway, it’s also shown different types of dangerous insects and animals that can cause certain disease and bacteria.

Ouay Ketusingh Museum of History of Thai Medicine is pretty much (and very short) a small history of how Thai medicine came about. Its about one small walking path and everything was shown from left to right.

You can find out more details at this website

Well, this is just Part One… will be back next week for Part two.

Here's some photos of us while we visit the sight-seeing places:-

Yours truly

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Bangkok Memorable – Our Backpacking Experience (Introduction)

2010-02-16T22:59:00.004+08:00

Dear readers,

While most bloggers published about their trips in days of events, I was compel to do something much different than that – preferably I would want to blog about the experience in an easier way of reading (and a sort of guide) of a place that is call The Land of Smiles. To me and Ree Nee, it was more and it was a memorable trip that we want to go back there for more. For me, the experience between going there “on tour” and “backpacking” seriously open up my eyes in ways that I would rather travel without a guide.

Ree Nee was everything she had done – she done her research about Bangkok so much better than I ever could (I tried doing some but somehow, I was blur) and she done so much more in taking us to places and trips but are much further than the city which cover 3 places and that is a lot for ½ a day. While the main purpose of this trip was shopping, it was the food and the culture that opens up our eyes. In my own words, I would like to share mine and Ree Nee’s experience (which you will read it in her own blog) of our trip to you dear readers.

Yours truly

p/s:- Happy Chinese New Year & Happy Valentine's Day

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I am off to Bangkok...

2010-02-07T06:53:00.002+08:00

Dear readers,

Today I will be off to Bangkok. This is my first overseas trip without a tour (besides my parents and Penang is not counted as overseas since Penang is part of Malaysia). I am feeling excited and just wonder what to do even... because frankly speaking, I have no idea what to do.

Going to take this holiday as it is... and hope it's a good adventure for me.

See you all next week... I will be back in 4 days time. Lots of pictures, and lots of words...

Yours truly,

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Feng Shui – A work of wonder or Annoyance?

2010-02-05T01:08:00.002+08:00

Dear readers,

Many people believe Feng Shui helps people in maintaining a better life ahead each year at the start of Chinese New Year onwards. Readings need to be done, calculation of date of birth and time has to be accurate and facing direction of the head will ensure each person’s life will not be ill fated for an entire year.

Lillian Too was the first to popularize commercially in Asia that also brought attention to the West as well to practice. As time goes by, Joey Yap, another famous practitioner of Feng Shui too became commercially famous. Both Feng Shui master interpretation and style are different and both have their own way of explanation of how Feng Shui works.

As time goes by… I have shifted from my old sleeping room to my sister’s room (she shifted out of the house with her husband) for the benefit of my dad. In the office, I was shifted from inside a room to outside. I shift most of the furniture from one place to another. Advised to face in a direction of sleeping/working for health, career and wealth. Had symbols and statutes on my table. All this had happened in the span of two years.

This year… I was told to shift back to my room and my seating arrangements in the office I have to face in another direction. Imagine I have to shift back to my old room carrying all the stuff that belongs to me back to my old room…

Bollocks to that.

Feng Shui or not, I had enough of it. Yes, I know some of you dear readers do believe in it but it is Feng Shui that had cause this ridiculous movement and seating arrangements that leads to an incident happened in the office – my dad fell.

The arrangements were like this – I used to work in a room with another colleague of mine and before Chinese New Year, I was told to move from inside the room to outside… for career and health purposes. I was quite alright by it since I go along with most things and move out from the room.

With me of course shifting my own table… and it is a big table. I had to dismantle the entire Ikea table and reassembled it, which took me slightly more than an hour, and it was not easy to make it stable. The entire process of shifting and helping out took about more than ½ a day (no work is done hence it feels like “shift your office supplies day and you still get paid). I look around and then I realize what I do not agree what was laying around on the floor – wires laid all over the place. Wires that are telephone lines, for servers and for electricity use. White and black all over.

I was not happy about this.

I told my colleague someone bound to trip and fell on the floor. Suggestion by the boss? Tape it down. I cock my eye higher than the other and still object about it but the boss said, “as long we mind the wires, we will be fine”.

Wires are taped on the floor. We have to mind the wires. Life and work moves on.

Months later, someone trip. My dad with his reading glasses on trip one of the wires and he fell. Head on to a wooden partition wall. He fell hard… so hard, you can hear as if an explosion occurred. As he lay down, I rush to him and ask him some question:-

“Are you hurt on your face?”

“Do you feel like blood on your face?”

“Do you feel excruciating pain on your face?”

“How is your leg and head?”

“Do you want to go see a doctor?”

Answers were given and I ask my dad to lift his hand away (he covered his face with his hand when he fell against the partition) and I can see is redness. He had a slight bruise on his leg, which scrap some of the skin off. Small bleeding and soon I drove him to the doctor and had a check-up.

He was lucky…

Today, I had to change to another facing direction where I am seating at. Minimal shifting, which makes me happy, but back home I was told to move back to my old room. This is where, Feng Shui or not and whether to believe – I stand my own ground and to hell with it. As far and how I think it is ridiculous that one person had to keep shifting from one end to another and move my furniture back and forth – this must stop.

I heard the year of the Tiger are good for Snakes in terms of career and love but not in health. Well, I would like to see how it will be like for the rest of 2010 until the next CNY. Already having dinner on a small plastic table instead of our dining table is ridiculous for me. I welcome any comments on this and your beliefs about Feng Shui but I keep my opinions about what had happened before. Until then... I hope nothing bad happens again like another falling.

Yours truly

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Bangkok here I come…

2010-02-01T13:04:00.001+08:00

Dear readers,

It has been awhile since I last travel to Thailand. It was my second overseas travel (Singapore being the first) to the land of Tom Yam and Seafood, good bargains and silk. I was 16 when I travel to Phuket on a tour trip. It was not much as mostly it is an island of sightseeing and not much on the shopping. Beautiful beaches and vibrant blue sea. My family and I travel another two more (on tour as well) before we stop going there again.

Now after more than 10 years, I am going back to Thailand and this time to Bangkok.

This is also my first travelling overseas not on tour… something I have never done before.

I never been to Bangkok before and I wonder what’s it like to be there since almost everything about the place is shopping. There are also some other sightseeing places like The Grand Palace, Vimanmek Mansion, Wat Pho (Temple of the Reclining Buddha), Wat Rachanatdaram and a whole lot more of temples to begin with, I am not sure once touched down, where to begin. Ree Nee is very excited since this will be her second overseas trip (and her first much like me is Singapore too) and there will be lots of shopping.

Excited as I am (and Ree Nee too), today of all days I have to read an article about Malaysians being detained unreasonably, with the highest detainees of Malaysians is… Thailand being number one. While most countries have their own horror stories to share, the recent news just do not make it even better for the current upcoming one.

Not afraid as I know if there is an eye for everything, there is justice to everything. And even if there is not, I guess I just have to make one… and save Ree Nee if any bad things happen.

Looking forward to Bangkok in 6 days…

Yours truly

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Parenting skills works well when ignorant is bliss…

2010-01-21T14:16:00.004+08:00

Dear readers,

As always every morning, I would delve myself into the world wide web. Much to my own interest, I always go to my usual hangouts (interest of what I love) and check what is going on today that the local papers don’t do (as explain how boring the local news are and how interesting about how people write their own stuff in blogs) and the web does. I came upon an article that was most interesting:-

“O’Brien: Why We Didn’t Get A Wii” by Chris O’Brien.

It was my first to read a column about someone I do not know or probably not famous and read the news from another site called “Kotaku” that details this columnist encounter of getting his first Wii Christmas present for the kids but a day later return it. In truth, I believe many hardcore gamers and geeks will go after this guy (and the comments I read truly yes, most of them have lambaste him with rude and crude comments in “Kotaku”) after reading his column – because his reasoning was somewhat on one hand is rather stupid in the perspective of a gamer that O’Brien did not do a thorough research but on the other hand, as a parent of two kids age 7 and 4 we never expect to do any of it.

Now I understand how my parents feel when they bought me toys they do not understand…

When I was young, I want many things that my parents can’t afford most of the time. My dad would scold me while my mum spoils me but not everything. I learn a lot from TV during the 80s and each time I talk to my parents about it, they only heard of it and not do research on it. While “Transformers” were so popular back then, the only transformer toy my parents ever bought for me was “Gridlock” (if that was the name) and it was the only toy that cost during that time almost RM 100 over. Toys then were so expensive (of course now is even more expensive) and with recession looms, that was what I got to play with – one Transformer. My dad would say, “look at the Dinosaur he can turn into a person”. My dad, as a parent, or as any parent would say that.

Years later when the movie “Transformers” came out, my dad learn a thing or two about it. That was years later when it became a box-office smash hit and not during the animated series was running in the 80s

Any parent or soon to be parent would not have done their own research or obtain knowledge about things that they bought for their kids of what they truly know but the kids know better. Before a parent, all we know was what we experienced in life. Times change rapidly and what O’Brien knows was what he gone through, not anything else since he had no interest in gaming. People will lose interest along the way as they became an adult and a parent to focus what is more important things for family bonding. O’Brien certainly does and I do not blame him for giving up the next-generation console, replace it with Legos or Groovy Dolls for that matter, play simple children’s board games and allow some discipline on online usage. O’Brien did make the right choice – less financial burden on the family and more towards the bonding of a parent and their kid. I am glad he did the right choice and I am going to say this to all the rude and crude comments that was given to him by these so-called hardcore gamers –

“BUGGER OFF.

Not everyone can afford hidden-cost and not everyone is as smart as you are. Give him a break because he is entitled to his own opinion and experience. Not everyone can share your own luxury but one thing he has that you do not – priorities. He earned his… and his column is worth reading.”

Now I can sit back and enjoy this good feeling…

Yours truly

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Another boring week? Afraid so…

2010-01-20T16:54:00.003+08:00

Dear readers,

While life depicts on television or the movies are at times always interesting and full of drama, real life on the other hand can be a little dull… what I am trying to say is – it has been a boring week.

Maybe because of the absence of certain shows and I am a little strap on cash could be the factor that there is much ado about nothing. News front – yes, a lot of sad news indeed. Haiti Earthquake, the vandalism of churches, the continuing cases of two deaths (one that is an inquest while another is an investigation) and blunders of the political scenes – it is even boring reading news that just rattle and nag and not making any “progress”, let alone “speed up” the problems and troubles that has been going around at the moment. The death of six people in Penang was tragic; my condolences to the families that lost their loved ones… but it is tragic that nobody took precaution of what went wrong in the first place. Unnecessary lives are lost, there will be lots of pointing fingers going on around and someone needs to be blame (more innocent affected). But soon enough, it will be a distant memory and if I recall correctly, mistakes were made before this tragic incident (maybe dear readers can refresh my mind as to what other tragic incidents happened in the past that are similar to this?) occurred. It was the same – nobody took pre-cautions. And people eventually die.

The fall of a small boy that was reported in the news was also another similar news years before another child did fell from a high-rise building that parents weren’t there to supervise. Again, this had happened before…

As time goes by, even reading the news of similar cases happened… is boring. Sad, tragic yes… but the same occurrence is boring. Why nobody and I mean nobody just learn from the past mistakes? Why nobody take pre-caution of safety? Why investigations are slow in progress that all that is said were “we got a lead” or “caught the suspect”? Why when there is a case, it took years to solve before it was complete and by that time, nobody even bothers to read it anymore because eventually, the outcome is the same?

Surprise me at least… which so far not, hence another boring week.

I was surprise on March 8 2008 election events that startle a lot of people of the outcome results. But as months goes by, one by one the same “eventual” outcome occurred and now, another boring news report that just no longer relevant to any readers.

I still read the local newspapers… but what is more interesting are the blogs written by other authors and at least, something interesting to read.

Right now I am rattling – bored and feeling sick; I am just tired of a bored week. I do not know about you readers, but at least if there is some positive shed of light of problems and troubles that are happening have positive results, at least there is something to look forward to for the future… but in the mean time, I have to say…

I am bored…

Yours truly

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Being sick isn’t fun, but I love her porridge

2010-01-12T23:20:00.003+08:00

Dear readers,

Nobody likes to be sick. It has its fair share of pros and cons – pros you do not get to work and rest for a few days and cons you do not get to eat good food. I on the other hand, am not entirely sick. I am sick to a certain extend – I got dry cough. The able body is able, but the consumption of food is limited. This is what I hate when entirely I am not that sick as even though the mind is weary, the body is able to contribute to the workforce and the feeling of that is inconsistent with my focus on the job and the food I want to eat.

Started late Sunday, I loathe the feeling. Yesterday it became much dryer than before, I had taken 7 Strepsils for Chesty Cough, and nothing works. Added with the cut I got myself into while eating lunch, my tongue got the worst bleed ever. After work, I drive to Ree Nee’s place and she cooked Pork Ball Meaty porridge (delicious) even though she is tired (hug hug, sorry dear you have to go through this). We ate very early around 6pm and soon rest until a call came from my dad, asking me to take him to a doctor.

The yummy porridge...

The bad cut I got on the side of my tongue...

Knowing my dad, he can be paranoid when it comes to his sickness. Yes, he is sick too but his coughs are almost gone while mine started. His was another different sickness – indigestion. At first, he was not sure what cause him this way. He thought it could have something to do with his heart as he got cold sweat and a racing heart. The doctor of course later reveal it was indigestion and soon given medication while he quite unhappy forking out RM 50 for the bill.

Returning home, Rufus greeted me with glee and as always and naughty as ever jumps around and plays with me. I still have not train him well on tricks but soon I hope I am able to teach him some tricks. He is getting smarter but sometimes a little cute and dumb a bit. I was still having this dry cough, I bought a stronger Strepsil to knock the cough off, and a cough pill called Paralgin Forte.

Today, I feel a little better but still having this dry cough. I hope by the end of the workday I will feel much better and I can eat my food without having that awful dry taste in my mouth. While my mind is weary, my body is starting. I hope I can knock off the sickness… I hated it feeling this way.

I won’t mind eating Ree Nee’s porridge again…

Yours truly

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Only January… and I am broke… almost.

2010-01-11T12:08:00.000+08:00

Dear readers,

2010 does not come with good news for me – practically I am a little broke. Not so much as totally broke but practically a little short on the pocket. While no worries about the holidays ahead, which are taken care of, what I never thought would be I am short on myself for expenditure.

Lately eating breakfast I hardly spend much – the most is a RM 1.20 porridge, which I usually take from my office area. A rice bowl size and I am full in the stomach. Lunch is a norm of habit – either two choices of dishes and I am done (Siew Yoke Rice or Wan Tan Mee). I save a lot in a month and that is good. Comes January and I miscalculated…

Weekends do require a lot of money – and weekends does cost a lot but it should not make me broke. My guess was probably the bills I pay – way too much and way too little for myself. I hate bills… who does anyway?

So what comes next for my weekdays meals? Cereal for breakfast and sandwiches for lunch. That is my agenda now to make sure I can live myself better for a month. Thanks to mum for being understanding, at least I do not need to suffer and able to start next month end.

My only worry is petrol… and lately selling my used stuff is not moving fast enough. Long gone are the days when people want second hand goods for themselves. Those days were good.

With the current economy climate and the rise of prices and stagnant pays, I have to plan ahead for this year. After all,… my New Year Resolution was a 3-year plan…

Yours truly

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Rendezvous At Chili's on New Year’s Day; Rufus joins the family the next day…

2010-01-05T08:59:00.017+08:00

Dear readers,

It has been a while since me and Ree Nee had a good meal together. Most of the time we go easy on our pockets and ate food that don’t cost a lot. No more than RM 10 per meal that is. Of course, the occasional cooking at home helps but we wanted to eat something nice for a change, which we did not for a long time.

Months at least…

What better way to celebrate with a good meal than in 1 Utama’s Chili's on a New Year’s Day. It was a day we spent time alone together (and away from friends and my family) to enjoy and welcoming 2010 (even though it feels like another day). We waited for ½ an hour for our table, while waiting, at least more than 10 people were on the waiting list, and they kept coming in! I should have taken a photo of the people waiting to show it to you…

Anyway, we sat and order our meals and drinks. We talk a little and in came our drinks and meals. I believed the photos speak for itself.

F&N Grape & Ice Lemon Tea

My meal, Crispy Chicken Crispers

Ree Nee's Lamb Shoulder

Molten Chocolate Cake...

... and what's left of this delicious dessert.

It has been a while since I ate my usual dish and when our dessert arrived, we are almost done for.

It was delicious and what’s more, two Big Apple donuts were waiting at home for us (courtesy from my mum), which later we ate those the next day.

While New Year is supposedly a celebration of joy and welcoming a new beginning, the next day we welcome a new puppy in our family. My parents bought a Shih Tzu on the 2^nd day of 2010 from a pet shop in SS2. He is 2 months old when my parents bought him. I was surprise that they bought him quite fast even… and I believe it is due to the price. From what I heard, my dad looked at him for a long time before decided to buy him.

Hello RUFUS!

He is a cute little fellow. Sometimes very well behave, other times quite naughty. He is teething now and he chases anyone’s toes if he sees any. Reactions from Hauptman (my other dog) sort of approve of him; Hauptman can be quite a jealous fellow if anyone upstages him.

We try to think of a name. Out of the blue, I said “Doofuss” because he looks kinda dummy to me. Cute but dummy looking. Ree Nee wanted to call him “Siew Yoke” or “Char Siew” (my guess was because her dog back home at Penang was called Pudding; food must be in her mind that night). I laugh quite out loud at where we ate the night my parents bought him. Then I check on the internet and look for puppy male dog names. I wanted to call him “Duffy” but then he is no Looney Tunes. Then wanted to call him “Oblix”, the sort like calling him “Obie”. That did not work out well. Between the two names, there is only one name where Ree Nee did say it – Rufus. Reason? Too much “Gossip Girl”.

Therefore, his name is Rufus. Cute little fellow that loves freedom and do not like small spaces. Then, when it is time to sleep, he sleeps where we put him and slept all the way until 6am he wakes me up. Trying to figure out why 6am…

Took a lot of photos that night. Well, the good thing about digital age is we can upload the photos for anyone to see so here are some. Enjoy.

Yours truly

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My 50th Post! And A Happy New Year...

2009-12-31T10:28:00.003+08:00

Dear readers,

I always believe when we die on the 364th day, we leave behind those days and start at day 1. Life is just about that and the same when we start each year. Everyone makes their on resolutions, looking forward to the new life ahead - to each of their own we all have something to look forward to.

I am looking forward to something that I should have done 2 years ago. And now, it is finally happening.

It is a little late yes and I am not at the age that is young and full of energy. I did not see it coming and now although it is late it feels like a turning point in life. 2009 and before... many have happened. Some with regrets and some unhappiness that happened and kept happening. I was nice and was nice to those that weren't appreciate of my own kindness. Some taken me for granted and some do not understand me entirely.

And the only person that did was Ree Nee.

Well... goodbye 2009 and before. I am going to born anew... and with that, what I had planned before 2 years ago I will make it work from 2010 onwards...

On the 1st day of 2010... I will believe I can do it.

Oh... my 50th post. That is considered good for me in blogosphere. Usually I don't last that long. I guess I can understand what makes me push forward...

Happy New Year to all readers... Happy 2010.

Yours truly

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A Christmas Weekend - Great Moments Comes The End...

2009-12-27T22:38:00.023+08:00

Dear readers,

The Christmas weekend comes with some ups and some downs... well, the downer is always the part that is on Christmas Day. It's not the entire day... I got a perfect gift from Ree Nee.

Thank you dear

At 12am on Friday, Ree Nee surprise me with a gift I never told her I wanted. She read my mind and I was stun to receive this gift. When I open it I was so happy - A Canon PowerShot 10 Megapixel camera. The camera itself I already wanted for our upcoming trip to Bangkok but I was not sure whether I can come up enough to buy a camera. But what I never expect was that she bought me as a Christmas gift. I was thrilled and in my heart I realize - she knows what I want. She gave me a letter for me to read and when I read it, I am more glad that she did not buy me the other gift and it was this one that she bought for me. Gifts like these are so rare and I never told her I wanted a camera when it was in my mind most of the time because I never thought it would be important. And it's here! Some shots I have taken:-

Isn't he cute?!?

My cute Ree Nee

Yup... that's me!

Our breakfast meal

A nightshot in Federal Highway

Our Orange Juice Jumbo Size drink (RM 6!!!)

Another shot of us together

I love the camera a lot. Ree Nee has given something so wonderful... a gift that can never replace by anything else. Thank you dear... you have given me a gift I will always remember - memories.

While on the 25th the day was somewhat like a normal day (and me and Ree Nee were at no peace whatsoever; everyone can't just leave us alone and sadly our Christmas day meals were... somewhat normal because we can't decide what to eat since I realize there is nothing in PJ town to dine), the best gift ever was given to me from Ree Nee. Although I had given her the 2nd Christmas gift (which I promised before) which was Gossip Girl: The Complete First & Second Seasons, I did promise her before her first gift... but I will get back to you on that one.

The next day, my parents and together with Ree Nee and I went for a Hi-Tea at Cititel Hotel. The last time I recall, the meals were to me somewhat so so but yesterday meal were great! Everything change (and I got my most important starter - bread!). What they provide is better than they have before (and even renovate the place even!) and we ate quite a lot of good food.

Yummy Christmas Log

I don't think that's edible...

Round One!

Round Two! (Pathetic right?)

Dessert!

My dad took this shot (I realize now with flash mode on, it never do justice!)

While the meals are enjoyable, I should not have stuff myself that much because sooner than I think, I slept about almost 3 hours long after we return home. Ree Nee was doing her assignments while I slept and soon dinner time was near and both me and Ree Nee just had Pork Ball Noodles at SS2.

Today, I promise Ree Nee her 1st Christmas gift is here. And yes... I bought her a NDS Lite Package!

Ree Nee's first DS!!!

Yes! My PSP Gooooooo... (and I know I look stupid...)

Our haul for today!

Ree Nee is glad that she got her DS as I promised (even it was way before suppose to be on her birthday but finally got it for Christmas)... but there was a 3rd Christmas gift I have yet gotten for her and one I also promised too. Will I ever be able to get them... time will tell and I believe... if I work harder... I will.

The weekend was one to be remembered (not to mention my mum had driven me and Ree Nee crazy over her excitement - she finally bought some games too to play on her DS!). I wonder how New Year is going to be... four more days till 2010 - where will you be by then?

Yours truly

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I cannot believe I am watching… GOSSIP GIRL & ENJOY IT!!!

2009-12-15T13:13:00.001+08:00

Dear readers,

As “Dollhouse” is cancelled and they are going to release the remaining episodes in the coming weeks (after a certain agreement from the creator and the studio), I managed to watch “V” remake TV Series of the first four episodes before they (too) take a break of at least 3 months before resume (and probably wondering if the show will ever be cancel or not remains to be seen). I took my original DVD collection of “V: The Original Miniseries” and “V: The Final Battle” and never thought watching the show it was entertaining since this series was release between 1983 to 1985. While I did not manage to buy “V: The Complete Series” yet (and it is rather cheap now to own them), I am awaiting the arrival of “Farscape: The Complete Series” (a total of four seasons) and searching for a new show.

Last week, my 2^nd Christmas present for Ree Nee arrived – “Gossip Girl: The Complete First & Second Seasons” from Amazon.com after my “Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen” Blu-Ray arrived without problems. She is happy she got both seasons (now you can re-watch the show in full glory, dear) as she miss out some episodes and asked me to watch together with her.

While in my mind I was seriously not into chic-lit shows (my anguish of watching “Laguna Beach” totally marred my life!) and avoid series like “Gilmore Girls”, “Beverly Hills 90210”, “Melrose Place” and “Dawson’s Creek”, I give this a try and then after watching the “Pilot” and “The Wild Brunch “… I ENJOY IT!!!

I think I just hear “Mr. T” in my head said “Whatcho doin’, fool? That’s girly stuff” to me and then all of a sudden “The A-Team” theme song just trying to run over and over again in my head.

Okay, maybe not “Mr. T” but I never expect after watching two episodes of the first season the show is rather intriguing. It has a little “Dynasty” and “Falcon Crest” in it (yes, in the 80s I watched those shows) but younger characters involved in the rich and famous sort. Each of their own has problems and secrets, manipulation and handling situations, the elite of the 21^st century of status and power and added the juiciest gossip from an unseen blogger that reports to anyone who subscribe her blog while of course, she is the narrator that carries the show. While this series was based on a series of novels, I can’t help but wonder why a prime time show like this is appealing…

In any case, I will continue watching the show (Ree Nee things I dislike it) since it is interesting enough to snag me into it. I am in the mood to watch TV shows all over again… and “Gossip Girl” had me at the reins…

Yours truly

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It is FREE movie fiesta all over again

2009-12-12T15:11:00.006+08:00

Dear readers,

As luck would have it, winning small is always good and dandy. Only recently, me and Ree Nee won 8 movie passes for 4 different films; two of each of us actually. Ree Nee had won “Mulan” & “The Princess & The Frog” while I won “Love Happens” and “Zombieland”. Here is a short and summarize review for all four movies:-

Mulan
- Jingle Ma’s legendary heroine version is more on in-depth than anything that is happy like Disney’s version. While the focus is Hua Mulan’s (played superbly by Zhou Wei) emotional journey of innocence lost, it is also a tragic tale of how Mulan took over her sick father’s place to become a legendary general that leads victory after victory of battles only to learn the bitterness of war that love can never come in-between. Do not expect anything of musical or happy endings; expect little tears and some sniffles in this drama film.

Love Happens
- The title is anything BUT as it was meant to be, Love Happens is actually about Burke Ryan (played by Aaron Eckhart) who is a self-help author that helps people in need when they are in pain, but he can not overcome his own pain until he met Eloise (played by Jennifer Aniston). While it is anything but a romance film, it is about one man’s journey to overcome his guilt that he cannot heal and it takes one-step to accept that life must move on. Well played by Aaron Eckhart but sadly not for Jennifer Aniston, the movie does not appeal to everyone due to the plot content. Although it is another movie that will reward you with tears, it is predictable and nothing exceptional.

The Princess & The Frog
-Adapted one of the shortest fairy tale story ever, The Princess & the Frog is what Disney has been all the long – bringing a magical tale that is Walt Disney’s vision trademark when he first started. Updated with something new and different, Disney took a big leap with this animation and the risk was worth it. With plenty of music, jazz and humour to go around, this movie definitely entertains for all ages. A rewarding entertainment that is worth watching for the holiday season.

Zombieland
- This is a fun (and rather very short) movie filled with funny punts and comical take on zombies. It is not “Shaun of the Dead” sort of British humour but rather a lighter side of slice of life look of the end of the world, with guidelines. Not much of a plot – very simple and straight to a point story with some gore, action and never-ending smile on your face. If you watch a few zombies with a bleak ending, this one gives you “hope” with “little moments of fun in life”. Awaiting this weekend will be “The Storm Warriors” (The Storm Riders sequel) and next week, James Cameron “Avatar”. Yes, small things do reward are always good and dandy.

Yours truly

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When a TV show you are watching is cancelled…

2009-12-10T10:55:00.001+08:00

Dear readers,

Recently Ree Nee and I had finish watching Dollhouse Season One, a modern day science fiction series created by Joss Whedon about a secret organization that lease out real life human beings to anyone to fulfil their fantasy or dreams with a price. While the series has potential, the 13-episode season one was interesting filled with action, mystery and suspense. As season two was recently release, we watched until episode 4 and then… it was cancel.

20^th Century Fox TV decided to canned the show because of poor ratings. This had happen before in another show called Firefly (also created by Joss Whedon), which has a serious potential until the TV Network decided to cancel that series with three unaired episodes (which is available on DVD & Blu-Ray for viewing now). No ending, no proper goodbye… just a nice “termination” and there goes the show with fans or viewers that were following no idea what just happen. I have to read up the news on the net to find out what really happen and why and it is sad to see something that could have explore much but the network would not care at all because ratings are important and ratings will carry the show if its deem worthy. Thankfully, Fox TV gave this show a chance to continue airing the remaining episodes before its death. This only happens in America (and I am not sure which other country practice this) but in Asian countries, they do not just cancel ½ way through but just finish the entire series and wrap it up nicely. Sadly, this is not the case for Dollhouse.

While I am considering watching “Fringe” (last year’s number one TV Series), this series is like “The X-Files” genre that is fill with mystery, science and supernatural phenomenon stuff that includes the weird and the unexpected. The show starts out slow and became a huge hit but will it be the same fate as Dollhouse remains to be seen since the ratings is quite around the same corner. We will eventually know in a few months if the show will be renew for a third season (currently season two in America). In the mean time, I will enjoy what is left of Dollhouse soon… and hopefully; another show comes along to satisfy my appetite… maybe the re-make 80s “V” perhaps.

Yours truly,

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A Decade of No Censorship – The 80s

2009-12-07T10:15:00.001+08:00

Dear readers,

When I was 8 years old, I was place in front of a TV most of the time. My parents are working most of the time to provide food and shelter during an 80’s recession. I was studying in Sekolah Rendah Bukit Bintang in my primary days (except Standard One I was in Sekolah Rendah Hang Jebat in Kuala Lumpur) and after school, I was happy to be home because of one thing – television.

The days and times were the best for TV programs. During the 80s there was only three television station – RTM1, RTM2 and TV3 (RTM is stand for Radio Television Malaysia). While RTM1 is leaning towards the Malay programs, RTM2 and TV3 are much more on the English side, with segments of programs every hour by the hour. I always look forward each day to watch TV Shows like “The A-Team”, “Knightrider”, “MacGyver”, “Simon & Simon” and “Magnum P.I.” even. Heck, when I sleep late I manage to catch “The Twilight Zone” even (the 80s version). Then once a while movies were shown even (like “A Nightmare On Elm Street” and “Planet of the Apes”) as a segment called “Blockbuster”. I always look forward of nights to watch these prime time TV shows and what is even better – there is no censorship during that time.

Yes, you read it right. There was no 18PL, 18SX, or 18SG for that manner. Hell, comparing to today, censorship had no reason to be there. TV Shows and movies were shown as it is and as intended. I mean, I watched “The Terminator” when Arnold Swarzenegger’s character T-800 cut out his eye and show his robotic optic when I was young! Now, when a re-run of the same movie what you get is a badly edited version that cuts the flow of enjoyment. A masterpiece that was butchered also kills off the enjoyment of James Cameron vision. Then television prime time shows were not in correct order as were meant to be and with ridiculous cuts. “Friends” were a good example as to how the episodes placements were and that rather create an unfriendly viewing to anyone who is a fan to the series.

While to me the 80s were the best of times, it was the 90s that finally spawn some good shows like “The X-Files” create a worldwide sensation. By then I had given up on local TV broatcasting and move on to movies. When Digital Video Disc (DVD) were introduce, it took a long time until finally, television series were compress into DVD that sold thousands to fans who love shows like the above mention. It also brought me back to watching TV shows that I did not touch for slightly over a decade. With a reason to watch now, I finally got my chance to watch the shows I wanted and more since many were not shown in Malaysia. It will take quite a while to create such a library but at least now, it is a start. Censorship really sucks if for no reason it was cut out. Like the tagline from “The X-Files”, the Truth is Out There and with no censorship, it should be shown in full glory just like the 80s.

Yours truly

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Four hours on the road – now I know what it feels like to drive this long…

2009-12-03T09:16:00.002+08:00

Dear readers,

Driving has been something I enjoy once a while. I get to go to destinations I want to, I get to save time to reach a destination, I get to be in my own comfort of my own and then I get to notice places I have not being to. Of course, once a while it can be very irritating when it comes to driving that to such extends it can be very annoying.

What I do not enjoy are heavy traffic, unreasonable jams that for no reason whatsoever there is one and of course, drivers that do not put on signals. Now I do not blame them for being that way but I do blame them for not being considerate. When one do not want to flick the stick up or down to show where they are headed, at least do notice other drivers before making that decision. I gotten so many narrow escapes from other drivers that it became a norm to me. It is easy to spot a driver that makes his/her own rules on the road and not abiding the rules of the law. Given while driving and meeting these sort of drivers add pressure on the road to be “safety selfish”. Hence, we make our own rules.

Two days ago, I drive my car out just to collect client’s cheques. From Sungai Buloh to Kota Kemuning and then to Kuala Lumpur, an estimate of almost four hours on the road ensures (added with traffic woes) that even any driver would be tired. Added drivers that putting on pressure to your concentration on the road adds the tiresome daily routine of Malaysian life on the road. It is not that bad actually but it is just some drivers are what most of us would say “one-kind” for the inconsiderate idiots. Not being bias but I have watch many BMW drivers swerving in and out on a 70 km per hour road at more than the speed I was driving. Not to mention the owners that drove all the luxury cars or big cars that just abuse their way, flashing their headlights telling you “move aside” or tailgate for that matter. Worst of if another driver is not careful, accidents happen. With the local forums stating their “greatness” on the road with the brand of their cars, even two decades later nobody give a damn about what “greatness” they got.

I always wonder what is it like to drive from Kuala Lumpur to Penang is like. If it is anything like what happen to me two days ago, I think I will either take a plane or a bus.

Yours truly

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A month to go before it ends…

2009-11-30T12:58:00.001+08:00

Dear readers,

December is a day away (or less) and in the next 31 days, 2009 will be over. Much has happen before – a rather eventful year for me from the beginning and the end. The middle is sort of a slow year with much horrible summer movies but able to travel to Penang after 20 over years since my last at the age of 11. This year alone is twice but it would have been great if there were a 3^rd. Alas, money is always an issue and what is important is my upcoming trip in 2010, two to be exact that I am looking forward to that I need to save. Well, make that three since I am going back to Penang during Chinese New Year holidays.

So, what is 2009 for you? Was it good? Was it bad? Was it just “so-so”/”meh”/”hmm” or just nothing? I know the year begins for me I met someone wonderful. I also met some new friends, had some gatherings with them, and had met some rotten ones too. Had some surprises and some disappointments. Met up with Ree Nee’s parents, siblings and her uncles and aunts and cousins. Some ups and quite a number of downs. Pretty much, what I had before but this year a little more compare to last year. Someone I know I grew up with turn “indifferent” or rather weird but the future is rather uncertain for her. My pet pass-on recently, my heart was torn and sadden that he fought for all he could to live but could not for another year. My life was turning about and getting better but still need some fixes. Overall – I am in pretty good shape (except the fact I gain weight too).

Looking back in 2009, there were two out of five resolutions for this year I had done – able to travel by myself in another country and learning to cook. While I did not manage to learn to play a musical instrument (guitar for a fact), pick up a language I want to learn and I have not found a job I want… at least I manage to do two instead of none. Resolutions are very hard to keep but to be able to do it is an achievement. I do not think not everyone can fulfil all but at least some is consider a great benefit. So what about 2010?

Well, here’s what I will lay out for 2009 (done and not done yet) as follows:-

1). Able to travel to another state/country by myself (Completed)

2). Able to learn how to cook (Completed)

3). Able to learn a language I desire (Not complete)

4). Able to learn and play a guitar (Not complete)

5). Able to find a good job (Not complete).

And here is what I will try to achieve for 2010, as follows:-

1). Able to learn how to cook and advance myself further to be able to cook better

2). Able to learn a language I desire

3). Able to learn and play a guitar

4). Able to reserve and find a good side job while maintaining an old one

5). Able to save enough for my future

6). Able to continue my 3 year goal plan and this time change of location

7). Try to complete all of the above or achieve 3 to 4 out of 6.

It is good to come up with a resolution as guidelines. At least this year I started to blog again (I gave up before and there was no material to write, but this year there was a reason to now); one personal as you readers are now reading and the other is on another site which is about as much on games only. Sharing this is consider quite hard for me but then, I doubt I have anything to gain as I want to blog as I want to and nothing more.

Thirty one more days to go and when 2009 ends, another year begans…

Yours truly

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Touche is my dog... and tonight maybe his last...

2009-11-26T01:04:00.004+08:00

Dear readers,

It is never easy to blog about love ones... and one that is his final night in my room. He is 12 years old, to be precise in human years 84 years old. A Shih Zhu breed, born in Australia and was bought from a pet shop in SS 19 Subang Jaya. He was small and nameless for almost 7 days until I gave him a name. Touche was his name... and he respond to it. It is rare for me to even have a clinging of things that respond to me. A name given that he chooses as an acceptance... but a dog that goes through in life following us since my parents rented a house in USJ 9 and finally now at Bandar Utama. He follow us for 12 years. In those years he hates my hugs but he likes when I carry him around like a baby.

He never made a sound, a gentle creature that walks and do as he likes. He loves to rub his head against his own bed like a cat, play himself as he moves around and wiggles his body all over the floor. He had a bed basket that he hops on to and had soft toys almost in unimaginable amount as my mum spoils him a lot. He was bottle fed, never a bowl as it will dirty his fur around his mouth. He likes to be chased by me or by any of my family members. And he loves to protest if he does not want to be wash. Each time we take him to a vet he shakes and frightens and each time after that, he goes home happily.

He had his own supper. Mum always bought sausage bums for him to eat. There was a time he joins us for dinner at the table too. He sat there waiting and licking his mouth while my mum would feed him with pieces of meat. I too sometimes do that too. He knows when it is dinner time as I carry him downstairs and he knows when there is none. He greets everyone by wagging his tail...

As time catches on, he grew older. He did not do any more of the habits he used to do. He sleeps almost all day and almost all night. He was comfort in my mum's room with air-condition. I notice he walks aimlessly. Sometimes when I call him, he cannot hear. He was slightly blind and deaf. I hug him most of the time and carry him like he was my own son. It is hard to let him go because the love he gave me was the love I will always know.

Tutu... passed on this morning. He struggled to live as he wants to. I was in pain when I saw him tries to stand up, struggle to walk and then he collapse. He vomited the food he ate yesterday. He tried to do what he can but...

I woke up this morning and notice his body was still. I look at his eyes and they are closed. He was wearing his own warmers as it was cold lately...

At first, I do not know what my reaction would be. But eventually... I cried. My mum too when she saw me cry. Tutu was with us for 12 years, the longest ever together with my family... and he move on. Sigh... I hope his next life as I believe in reincarnation, he live better...

I love you Tutu... and I miss you...

Yours truly...

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What is your Christmas present this year?

2009-11-23T16:38:00.001+08:00

Dear readers,

It is 31 days until Christmas and 38 days until it is the end of 2009. Decorations are up or about to, Christmas music are played, items of sale are up and many people are happily shopping for gifts. While there is no snow in Malaysia (won’t it be great if there is), celebration in Malaysia is either “meh” or “hmmm”. I want to make this Christmas special to Ree Nee. The only thing is whether can I achieve it or not and I believe I will be able to. Nevertheless, Christmas gifts must be special… and I want it special for her. My first Christmas gift to her.

At the moment, I do have an idea what to get for her but the task would be difficult. Firstly, I have to raise the money first and then once that is done; I will take her to get her gift. Although it will be early, I do have other plans as well too. Moreover, this other “plan” she will never know what it is (sometimes I feel giggly knowing Ree Nee can never guess my surprises even when she tries hard). Ah… but how can this be done even? This is a difficult task and I hope I am able to… let alone I myself want a gift too.

I too have surprises as well… this will have to wait and see what sort of surprises for others too.

Stay tune…

Yours truly…

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Are we towards the end of times?

2009-11-19T10:22:00.002+08:00

Will the Earth erupts in the future just like the movie in "2012"?

Dear readers,

This morning I woke up with a very cold weather feeling. So cold, it is as if I am in another cold climate country. Maybe because I wore only a singlet and the feel of the cold sips into my skin. I use the pillows to cover myself from the cold but to no avail, I still feel the cold. I wonder how cold it was today and what is the degree of coldness that I am experiencing. Last night was very cold to an extend the evening rain (which occurred almost every day) cause traffic woes and wetness to each well-being. Much further, that it brought some memory of information about the climate change in our global climate.

It was few days before me and Ree Nee watched “The Day After Tomorrow”, about how global change causes the Earth to stir towards the Ice Age that is showing the end of times. Well, it did not seriously end “end” in a sense “Goodbye world, it is nice knowing you” sort. It is more about two thirds of the world population affected. There were survivors and humankind continues but the devastation is at a large scale. That is “The Day After Tomorrow” as seen.

Yesterday’s “2012” was an eye-opener. It still touches the end of the world theme but with drastic shift in the Earth’s core. Now does this have anything to do with global change? I believe so. Those it explain how it happen? In layman terms yes. While in the year 2012 before December 21^st, the Earth will be facing impending doom. The devastation was enormous scale instead of large. It makes “The Day After Tomorrow” puny. We get to see land ruptures and there is no ways anyone can survive (except the protagonist in the film) to a certain extend that a little science fiction involvement included, which is unbelievable. Nevertheless, people still survive.

For both movies, everything happens so fast. Seriously a visual to awe for but then coming back to me being “cold”, I believe we can make it through 2012… much like anyone make it in “Y2K” as predicted by certain people we will face technological failure which slowly clocks in nicely with the year 2000 (and it has been 9 years already and life goes on). The only thing that we will and do face is our future is seriously threatened.

The changes are minor and small. Most people do not notice these signs because we all have our own daily problems - money and daily survival for food and shelter. People are still people doing what they can to make it work at the end of the day, week, month or year. Moreover, people still do what they do without knowing the fact it does hurt the Earth. Nevertheless, with needs, it is hard to stop doing the “needs” when we all kept doing it and it does hurt… in some ways or the other.

Still… I cannot help but notice these small things. Something is happening to our planet and it maybe too late to save it even. I may sound a little hysterical but one of the things we should notice the changes are these three:-

1). Animals/Insects kept coming up dead in an unnatural order

2). Disastrous natural events kept raging up each year

3). Unbalance anomaly of seasons not coherent with its proper climate

With all these signs more prominent than before, I wonder what the future, do hold for us in the coming years.

While it is entertaining to watch both Roland Emmerich movies, one movie that spells the end of the world and truly faithful to the event was “The Knowing”. Although some science fiction element is involved, the event happened with 99% fatality death rate. Though the ending is biblical, (you have to watch the movie to understand what I mean), if the world ends to day…

… it will be a small single unsound “pop” in the universe. To us, it will be a deafening roar and chaos.

No matter what facts we learn from in any medium form, we have to notice these things and urge “someone” to do what is right to save our planet – whether it is too late or not.

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We should not go for the “want” but the “need” instead… (My Self-Discovery Jounrey Part Two)

2009-11-17T10:50:00.002+08:00

Dear readers,

An article from The Sun from a young writer at page 12 had something interesting to say. As I read, I notice two things – realistic points with realistic practice. Sadly, how many are really doing it and what are the reasons that many do the “wants” instead of a “need”?

I would like to admit I was once a person full of “wants”. I want many things – I want my games, I want my DVDs/Blu-Rays, I want good food, I want to watch every single movie ever came out from the theatre, I want to travel, I want to buy any comics/mangas I want or desire, I want to buy CD and songs I enjoy, I want a place of my own and I want to lead a comfortable life. I had many of those collections of movies/TV Series/Anime/Cartoons, CDs and comics/mangas and even games too. It was a collection that many do envy and I am proud of owning them. It says what you are and what you can do.

It is the many “wants” I dreamt of and I almost achieved that. Four years ago, I hit a point that I suffered – I had a side business that work but one person changes everything. It cost my side business, my own income and even my standard of living. I manage to work hard to earn my monthly salary of my main job but to almost that, I cannot afford my “wants”. It was the time I helped that one person because of love of the troubles that person faced, it cost me until… I realize that four years I have known this person; everything I live and know was a lie.

It took me two years to rebuild what I have left and each week I have to worry whether I have enough. My side business was gone, all I can depend on was working hard on the current job I am holding (to this day) and work off to cut almost all my “wants”.

It was two years ago at the month of July, I hit a fragile point – my fatigue without my “wants” got the better of me. I became depress, despondent and even at the time when I was at a withdrawal stage of depression, it added more to my well-being. I was thinner than thin. I do not eat well and neglect everything. Although I do go out once a while with my friends, spending money was an issue. I oblige to their call but then I realize I have to take care of myself too and not spending excessively. I always have to check my wallet to see whether I have enough in those two years and what I can save for myself. I cannot talk to them about my problems because they are my problems. What can they do, as it is a personal affair? All I can do is just obliged and to see to what extend I can or cannot make it.

During those two years, a quote from the movie “Fight Club” said:-

“Things that you own end up owning you…”

Wow… that was profound. In a way, I do agree. Things that I own seems to take life that runs my life a little dry. At first, it was a heartache to see my things go but they do control what I feel when I see them go. I sold a lot over the spanning of two years and what I have left is what I am able to control – what I require is what to sustain my own life. So the quote becomes my life philosophy.

This year I was getting better but at the same time was getting slightly a pitch of downhill. But what matters is whether I can survive the ordeal. I still collect movies (now in Blu-Ray but one at a time) and I still go for movies and play games. It is just not that much as they are bigger things to focus on – the “need” of my own “future” and also for me and Ree Nee.

As time goes by, I realize what I have sold of my own collection that I am proud of no longer pains me. I can get them back or rather not get them back. Many things are important and now what is important is the need to have a future. Without a future, there will be none.

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Now where have I been, you wonder…

2009-11-13T15:59:00.002+08:00

Dear readers,

Yes, it has been two weeks since my last post (or over) and a lot has happen. The major reason of my blog post – crisis within my family!

… okay, maybe I over exaggerate a bit. Nevertheless, there is drama, action and even unsolved mysteries.

… okay, I believe I gone overboard the above. The truth is…

YES!!! CHECK MARK THE BOX OF ALL OF THE ABOVE.

Sigh…

Sad and true (and serious now) something happened two weeks ago in my immediate family. It is hard to talk about it here as it is rather personal. In like of things, past and present involve with a little of the unknown. It is like “The X-Files” meets “The Simpsons” with a little added “Brothers and Sisters” into the drama. I was mystified; I was also a performer of a stage play that when it happened, it was something that I have to wait and see whether it is truly, really real. It is hard to put words here for you dear readers to read but I can say it is like a real dramatization of something that is real and unreal happening at the same time.

Okay, I know you are confused and not sure what I am saying. Sadly, I cannot say much here because it is private. At the moment right now, it is a calm after a storm. Imagine Hurricane Grace that leaves a rather devastated city behind. It still lingers around me and yet all I can and my family do is wait and see what happens.

Now, to summarize the missing two weeks:-

I am going to Langkawi this coming June with Ree Nee and her parents (all thanks to Air Asia’s freaking cheapo promotion… but then, it is not cheapo at all the next day on the first day of promotion).
Ree Nee and I have been spending a lot of time every day. Lately we two have helped each other in the kitchen – meals for the day and they all taste good. We talk about other stuff to cook too. Gyoza perhaps?
My dog, Touché (also known as Tutu) has been visiting the Vet lately. I am worried about his condition as age is catching up on him (he is 12 years old Shih Zhu). He is under medication and more medication and the only worried I have is one day… he might leave us. Of all the dogs my parents have taken care of, I love him the most.
Lately I have been feeding movies to Ree Nee. I was shocked that most of the movies she never watches at all (not even STAR WARS!). But then Ree Nee is not into movies and I can understand that. Still, she lightens up when she watch a good romance movie (recently… “My Big Fat Greek Wedding” and she like it) but I manage to sneak in some good old Hong Kong movies (and I intend to get more of those) and at least she enjoy some.
Out with McDonalds and in with Wendy’s. Yes, our craving for fast food is only one brand name – Wendy’s. McDonald’s prices on McValue Sets are so high, it is not worth going there anymore. The food portion is small and the fries are oily. Wendy’s on the other hand is tasty, big in portions and the Nuggets are the best we have tasted. We do not always go there but once a while when we crave, we will go for it at least twice in a month.

Well, I hope I am back to my normal posting schedule for my blog. At least for now peace is all around. I do not know for how long but what I look forward is the end of 2009 and welcoming 2010. Reason? Likely it is time to get the better of me and make a better future…

Yours truly…

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Breakfast or lunch?

2009-10-23T11:45:00.003+08:00

Nice, whole meal

Dear readers,

Ah, the wholesome meal of the day. Whether it is the start of work of the break of lunch, one person’s meal is always important. In addition, today, Ree Nee made one for me since yesterday. The red container that contains everything there is she made for me – a meal that completes an empty stomach.

So today I open the red container and found myself in a dilemma – two ham buttered mayo sandwiches, a pasta filled slices of ham, eggs with sausages and mini tomatoes (which I it is Ree Nee’s liking). The container is small, but the food is many. It was meant to be for breakfast and as I look into that container and open the lid three times just to decide whether it is for breakfast or lunch…

… I ended up as lunch instead.

Ree Nee has cook many delicious dishes (courtesy of my mum’s food galore giving) and with each meal, we both always complete everything (except one time, the cooking became a lot and we manage to eat as much as we can). Either me or Ree Nee cook, the food is always delicious. I wonder what’s for tonight…

Ree Nee's Butter Prawn

Ree Nee's Pasta Meatballs... yum

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